Brandon Nivens - Numb Lyrics

I don't know why I feel so numb inside
When I wake up a little piece of me dies
When I go to sleep I'm afraid to close my eyes
I'm vulnerable and nothing that I do subsides
The feelings that I be feeling all up in my inside my mind
What if I don't get up tomorrow and truly die
I say that I'm okay but everyone knows that's a lie
I put up a wall just so they don't see me cry
My wings are broken I fall every time I try to fly
I been climbing and trying but I can't reach the sky
They keep telling me I can make it to new heights
But they don't know what it's like they've never had to fight
I'm scared everyday that I will not see tomorrow
I look at my watch feeling like I'm wasting time
But they say time is money
Like a loan it feels borrowed
No matter what I do, I can't go bury my sorrows
There's a couple people I owe apologies too
But we ain't speaking now either way it's overdue
I never said sorry now I'm feeling so dumb
I never realized I could become so numb

I don't feel the same (no no)
I hate myself again (no no)
See my demons but I can't run (can't run)
Lately I've been feeling so numb (so numb)

I been there
Trust me I know what it feels like
To feel like you are worthless and nobody cares
Sitting in your room crying screaming "this ain't fair"
I had to learn myself that life really takes balance
You can only go so far when you got talent
Life ain't always happiness and fucking beauty pageants
If you want something realize that it takes practice
But I don't get it the vision wasn't inside my mind
Look at my watch and it's ticking - I am still wasting time
I've never looked and saw a mountain I couldn't climb
When the color fades I slowly become blind
I replay all the memories I left in my mind
And honestly it's been a long time coming
I'm walking in circles but sometimes I feel I'm running
My wings and my legs are both broke - I can't run
I don't know what I've done to become this numb

I don't feel the same (no no)
I hate myself again (no no)
See my demons but I can't run (can't run)
Lately I've been feeling so numb (so numb)