Dreams and Habits Lyrics Meanings
by Devon Halliday

In the aftermath I cannot say
What it is I am and always have been this way
And I am drained of every course
I thought I could take
My little dose of shame
Tracing the cursive where I signed my name
But I can't bait myself to basics anymore
Is this you my god
How your face has changed
Are you still in charge of me
Like the good old days
Have I let us down again
Or did I never raise us up
Do you feel sorry for me
That might be enough
They will cordon off my cracking heart
'Cause I had potential but I must have gone and torn it all apart
Or used it up on dreams and habits
I thought I could start
But is that true my god
Have I ever changed
No one's going to tell my story if it stays the same
Shall I let you down again
Or shall I let you in on one of those unspeakable things
I'm not really nice, at all
I was never good like I might have let on
I guess I tried my best
If to try is a charade of knowing just how much to say
I'm not really good, I know
All the demons that you thought I fought against I held them close
And I would rather be alone than saved again today
And the aftermath is here to stay
And forever is a stack of days on top of days
And I am drained
It's all true my god
Be that as it may
Be that as it may
Be that as it may

In the aftermath I cannot say
What it is I am and always have been this way
And I am drained of every course
I thought I could take
My little dose of shame
Tracing the cursive where I signed my name
But I can't bait myself to basics anymore
Is this you my god
How your face has changed
Are you still in charge of me
Like the good old days
Have I let us down again
Or did I never raise us up
Do you feel sorry for me
That might be enough
They will cordon off my cracking heart
'Cause I had potential but I must have gone and torn it all apart
Or used it up on dreams and habits
I thought I could start
But is that true my god
Have I ever changed
No one's going to tell my story if it stays the same
Shall I let you down again
Or shall I let you in on one of those unspeakable things
I'm not really nice, at all
I was never good like I might have let on
I guess I tried my best
If to try is a charade of knowing just how much to say
I'm not really good, I know
All the demons that you thought I fought against I held them close
And I would rather be alone than saved again today
And the aftermath is here to stay
And forever is a stack of days on top of days
And I am drained
It's all true my god
Be that as it may
Be that as it may
Be that as it may