How About This? - Talkin' Self Loathing Blues 1989 Lyrics

I can't say anything right
I just keep vomiting
Evidence of being uptight
Contrived and contrite
Asleep when I'm awake
Awake when I'm baked
Feeling really heavy
Now I'm feeling dizzy

Talking too much it will never stop
My mind is a highway that never seems to drop
I'm coughing out loud from choking on smoke
But my diet is the highlight on this steep slippery slope

I prefer not to eat which ceases my sleep
Hearing loud noises but no one is making a peep
Paranoid paranoid I don't know what that means
But I find when I dream
I'm haunted in my sleep

These deadly premonitions send me on a mission
Where there is no solution to the illustrious illusion
Of being well or just being alive
It makes me want to cry but no tears come to my eyes

Dry as well in the depths of hell
My mouth cracks bleeds and swells
Face unkempt hair soaked with sweat
A disgusting image of one you wish you hadn't met

No wants my dick or to hear all my shit
An instant turn off is a self loathing prick
So let me say it just one more time
A nickel and a nickel don't make a dime