InterParadox - Plant Hope Lyrics

They say that the place you call home is where you were raised
How you were treated and all the trials you faced
They shape and define you, outline and sign you
But sometimes all the good things you're thought don't align true
My future past and present is just a giant maze
Don't know where I am going where I belong in dying days
There seems to be only one right way out
So what would be wrong with taking the finale leap and ending it right now
Ending it right now, and ending it right here
It's this loneliness that i've always feared, but that I've always known
Lived for 24 years but it seems like a lifetime alone
A lifetime alone hanging by the phone
Waiting for someone to call and melt my heart of stone
My heart of stone and stop this pain form growing
When I was on the brink I realized that I'm my own

Yes I am my own
I plant hope and I will reap what I've sown
Through the darkest times it'll always be by my side
Cause I won't leave myself to die

Was in a dark spot, like I was left to rot
Isolated from everyone myself was all I got
Lost my values wonder if I ever even had some
Nothing seems to be worth anything all of what I had done
Seemed to fizzle out and nothing came about
Self esteem? The only thing I know is doubt
But right before I took the step there came a time
That made me realize that this life is mine
So I took a step but took it backwards
Had to examine my life I put on lab shirts
Took a close look at all these rat turds
That made up my past years and if I had worse
And yes I had worse
Past battles and struggles had left a lasting mark on me till this day this shit still hurts
This shit still hurts, not fixed by a nurse, writing this is therapy all over this verse

Yes I am my own
I plant hope and I will reap what I've sown
Through the darkest times it'll always be by my side
Cause I won't leave myself to die

Yes I am my own
I plant hope and I will reap what I've sown
Through the darkest times it'll always be by my side
Cause I won't leave myself to die

Yes I am my own
I plant hope and I will reap what I've sown
Through the darkest times it'll always be by my side
Cause I won't leave myself to die

Yes I am my own
I plant hope and I will reap what I've sown
Through the darkest times it'll always be by my side
Cause I won't leave myself to die