Jayden Jesse - Used to Be (Interlude) Lyrics

I'm not really copin'
Am I just broken?
I can't fuckin' focus
All these people are like locusts
Fuckin' vultures
I'm just tryna be the man I'm supposed to be
But demons get a hold of me
Wishing it was O for me
But I'm a coward and I wouldn't do it myself
So I allow it to bottle up inside of me
I know I shouldn't
It's not good for my health
I stopped going to the psych because I didn't wanna inconvenience anybody else
Didn't learn how to drive 'cause my father left when I was 18
And my mother couldn't take care of herself
Now I'm 23 and I'm losing me to the person people want me to be
This is just me speaking honestly
This may not be how I want it to be
But this is how it's gotta be
I guess
I'm out here looking for myself
'Cause lately I've been feeling like someone else
But I'm too proud to call out for help
Take a look at me
And see that I've already paid my fees
I'm not the man that I used to be
I feel like I don't know where I'm going
But I know where I wanna be
I can see the vision clearly
But it's just a matter of the feat
So I gotta keep moving
Keep grinding
Everything will happen in good timing
But one thing's for sure
I'm not the man I used to be
I'm out here looking for myself
'Cause lately I've been feeling like someone else
But I'm too proud to call out for help
Take a look at me
And see that I've already paid my fees
I'm not the man that I used to be
Oh
I'm not the man
That I used to be

I'm not really copin'
Am I just broken?
I can't fuckin' focus
All these people are like locusts
Fuckin' vultures
I'm just tryna be the man I'm supposed to be
But demons get a hold of me
Wishing it was O for me
But I'm a coward and I wouldn't do it myself
So I allow it to bottle up inside of me
I know I shouldn't
It's not good for my health
I stopped going to the psych because I didn't wanna inconvenience anybody else
Didn't learn how to drive 'cause my father left when I was 18
And my mother couldn't take care of herself
Now I'm 23 and I'm losing me to the person people want me to be
This is just me speaking honestly
This may not be how I want it to be
But this is how it's gotta be
I guess
I'm out here looking for myself
'Cause lately I've been feeling like someone else
But I'm too proud to call out for help
Take a look at me
And see that I've already paid my fees
I'm not the man that I used to be
I feel like I don't know where I'm going
But I know where I wanna be
I can see the vision clearly
But it's just a matter of the feat
So I gotta keep moving
Keep grinding
Everything will happen in good timing
But one thing's for sure
I'm not the man I used to be
I'm out here looking for myself
'Cause lately I've been feeling like someone else
But I'm too proud to call out for help
Take a look at me
And see that I've already paid my fees
I'm not the man that I used to be
Oh
I'm not the man
That I used to be