Neon Film Society - I just wear a mask to hide my face Lyrics

White knuckles in my head
Something went wrong and now my stomach's lead
I don't wish I was dead
I'll destroy myself instead
deleting notes like thoughts from my head

Sometimes I feel out of place
Like I'd belong in a different space
While other care what they portray
I'd rather pass them by
I just wear a mask to hide my face

I just wear a mask to hide my face

I'm fine
Well at least I'm trying
Even though its hard to find your kind inside your mind sometimes
I'm dying
Not literally, but
I can empathize
When I look at you, your eyes, your smile,
It seems to find some part of me that I had left behind
Some part of me that I had deemed too vulnerable to emphasize
Tucked away in order to prevent getting hurt again
I resent never letting in anyone
Ignoring my own pleas for betterment
Forget it all put on my face and then
Next a show for them
Perfectly rehearsed cause it had no words
At least not any that made it sound like I was hurt
But it was worse
Turns out that nonsense verses really are the way to purpose
And who you really are does not depend
On who's you friend or leaves you on read or gets inside your head
Just how you feel
Cause even if it's real it can be hard to justify
But if you look inside
You'll find the very thing you're looking for
Is already a part of you

I just wear a mask to hide my face