Peter Greenidge - Contradictions Lyrics

I feel alone so I push people away
I don't know where to go so I just stay in place
I want to be vulnerable but probably not today
These thoughts can't all be my own so I'll just let them fade
I am such a human
I'm everything I hate
I'm a glutton for ruin
And sitting in my pain
I want to be a new man
But I just stay the same
I should be looking for shelter
But I'm just standing in the rain
I always get so pissed off when people act like me
I want to really live my life but I'm still glued to a screen
I ignore no one as much as my own family
I'm inclined to lie if it gets me what I need.
I am such a human
I'm everything I hate
I'm a glutton for ruin
And sitting in my pain
I want to be a new man
But I just stay the same
I should be looking for shelter
But I'm just standing in the rain
Rain
Rain
Rain
I'm so sick of these contradictions
Setting their roots in me
I can't win and I don't know who I am
And I just miss feeling free
I am such a human
I'm everything I hate
I'm a glutton for ruin
And sitting in my pain
I want to be a new man
But I just stay the same
I should be looking for shelter
But I'm just standing in the rain
Rain
Rain
Rain
Rain
Rain
Rain
Rain

I feel alone so I push people away
I don't know where to go so I just stay in place
I want to be vulnerable but probably not today
These thoughts can't all be my own so I'll just let them fade
I am such a human
I'm everything I hate
I'm a glutton for ruin
And sitting in my pain
I want to be a new man
But I just stay the same
I should be looking for shelter
But I'm just standing in the rain
I always get so pissed off when people act like me
I want to really live my life but I'm still glued to a screen
I ignore no one as much as my own family
I'm inclined to lie if it gets me what I need.
I am such a human
I'm everything I hate
I'm a glutton for ruin
And sitting in my pain
I want to be a new man
But I just stay the same
I should be looking for shelter
But I'm just standing in the rain
Rain
Rain
Rain
I'm so sick of these contradictions
Setting their roots in me
I can't win and I don't know who I am
And I just miss feeling free
I am such a human
I'm everything I hate
I'm a glutton for ruin
And sitting in my pain
I want to be a new man
But I just stay the same
I should be looking for shelter
But I'm just standing in the rain
Rain
Rain
Rain
Rain
Rain
Rain
Rain