Pretty Little Fake - Growing Up Lyrics

Growing up I knew
I was destined for the Rock 'N' Roll mentality
So I told myself
Love was never meant to be inside of me
I wanted to break the curse
But it crept its way deep down in…
And when I turned 19; I fell in love,
It all went to shit!!!
Oh..
Um..
Maybe I should explain
I always pushed away so no one would remain close
But when they stay I feel like such an asshole
I hate that I set myself up for disaster
I wish there was a way for me to be better
I always make things out to what they aren't
And the things I hold close normally fall apart
How I hate that this is my mentality
If this was a game it would be OVER instantly
Growing up I wrote songs
Of all my life's complexities
A way of coping with the pain
And all the mental abuse it tends to bring
The drugs just pass
But the thoughts I have overwhelm
If you ever heard what I hear
You'd say, "You need some fuckin help"
I always pushed away so no one would remain close
But when they stay I feel like such an asshole
I hate that I set myself up for disaster
I wish there was a way for me to be better
I always make things out to what they aren't
And the things I hold close normally fall apart
How I hate that this is my mentality
If this was a game it would be OVER instantly
Oh...
Um...
Maybe I should explain
Growing up I saw,
That the people I love tend to leave
I would blame myself
From all the pain I could weave
And every time someone goes
A little piece of me dies
I just want someone that will stay
So I know it's not me this time
I always pushed away so no one would remain close
But when they stay I feel like such an asshole
I hate that I set myself up for disaster
I wish there was a way for me to be better
I always make things out to what they aren't
And the things I hold close normally fall apart
How I hate that this is my mentality
If this was a game it would be OVER instantly
GAME OVER
Fuck!

Growing up I knew
I was destined for the Rock 'N' Roll mentality
So I told myself
Love was never meant to be inside of me
I wanted to break the curse
But it crept its way deep down in…
And when I turned 19; I fell in love,
It all went to shit!!!
Oh..
Um..
Maybe I should explain
I always pushed away so no one would remain close
But when they stay I feel like such an asshole
I hate that I set myself up for disaster
I wish there was a way for me to be better
I always make things out to what they aren't
And the things I hold close normally fall apart
How I hate that this is my mentality
If this was a game it would be OVER instantly
Growing up I wrote songs
Of all my life's complexities
A way of coping with the pain
And all the mental abuse it tends to bring
The drugs just pass
But the thoughts I have overwhelm
If you ever heard what I hear
You'd say, "You need some fuckin help"
I always pushed away so no one would remain close
But when they stay I feel like such an asshole
I hate that I set myself up for disaster
I wish there was a way for me to be better
I always make things out to what they aren't
And the things I hold close normally fall apart
How I hate that this is my mentality
If this was a game it would be OVER instantly
Oh...
Um...
Maybe I should explain
Growing up I saw,
That the people I love tend to leave
I would blame myself
From all the pain I could weave
And every time someone goes
A little piece of me dies
I just want someone that will stay
So I know it's not me this time
I always pushed away so no one would remain close
But when they stay I feel like such an asshole
I hate that I set myself up for disaster
I wish there was a way for me to be better
I always make things out to what they aren't
And the things I hold close normally fall apart
How I hate that this is my mentality
If this was a game it would be OVER instantly
GAME OVER
Fuck!