Ruud Kahn - Infinity Guitars Lyrics

If I was a teenage girl how would I be
How would I be
Yeah how would I be

I want to be a different person
I want to be someone else
I want to be different
I am tired of myself
Can you even tell

Something is haunting me, something is haunting me
I can't live, when I can't see
I'm too weak, I can't breathe
I don't sleep, something is wrong with me
These thoughts will someday drown me, go ahead drown me
End this misery, otherwise it carry on till infinity
Til infinity, til infinity

How far will it take me
To a place where no one can find me
No one can judge me

I wanna live I wanna die
I don't know which to decide
I wanna live I wanna die
I don't which to decide
Which one, which one

I have trouble being myself
I don't know who I really am
I hate my body, I hate myself
I need to change, I need to become a teenage girl
Then I'm going to be happy
I can't stand being chained down by everything
These boxes are meant to destroy you
Be this, be that, you have to do this do that
Can I ask why? Why are you killing me
Your expectations do nothing but scar me
I feel like a damn zombie
With no emotions, I'm a nobody
You will be fine, that's what they told me
These people don't know anything about me
Why are they called my friends and family
Can you not see something is wrong with me
I need help, this is insanity
But while I scream at full capacity
No one is there to listen after me
I'm going to find the key
And unlock these heavy chains that are weighing down on me
I can't stand this anymore
I'm gonna break free

Aaaaah

I want to be
A teenage girl
A teenage girl
A teenage girl
A teenage girl
A teenage girl
A teenage girl

I still don't know who I really am
How do I find out
This sucks