Sadboy Slava - I Am Lyrics

I said I know that I am just here to show
What I have seen and what I hold dear
I don't need to look around
When it dances inside and it's growing, it's growing brown
Like the shit that I have been filled with
I've been spewing it out of my mouth
And I said that I'm done and I'm looking toward the future
Can you feel it
I don't think it matters what I do
If I'm trying to only look to you
I see that I have something in myself
That's better than I can get from anyone else
And it makes me sad to say
That I know how much of me
I have wasted looking for it within thee
But it doesn't mean I'm dead
And it doesn't mean my heart's not red
And it doesn't mean I'm giving up instead

I can see what I have been called to be
What I am supposed to see
I don't need anyone
To be what I am
God's son

I am going to bring peace
I am going to spread joy
The only way I know how
It is my love I shall employ
I will deploy it everywhere
The people all around will stare in awe
As they experience the thing that I have now brought

But I, I'm back here again
And I, to the world am a friend
I know that it's looked down upon
But I will not give up
No, I will not give up on the ones we've all given up on

I said I know that there is so much beauty
I know that I am the one who will uncover it
If you don't believe in what is in front of you
Then what do you even believe in
I take a look and I feel alive
When I look into your beautiful eyes
Because I make myself see what is true
And that's something no one else can see in you
Yet still I don't want anyone, no I don't
I just am God's son
I don't need anyone, no I don't
Because I am God's son

So if you look and you don't see
Then I will promise, don't give up on me
'Cause if you stick around
I'll show you how truly loud I will make the sound
Oh, the shining of the lights
Oh, the universe burns bright
Brighter than I could ever have seen before
The good love of God, it lights up more and more
Every single day I have given up
But it's time for something else to start holding me up
'Cause I'm here, and I'm tired of living the way I have
I wouldn't even say that I have been living
I'll say that what I have had was something that I was not given
Was something I had taken away and it wasn't mine in the first place
But I'm saying that I know
That I'm here for a reason
And that is to make sure that
This world can be as beautiful as God's son