Seventh Estate - I'm Sorry, Mom Lyrics

I'm sick of all the doctors, I'll never find my way back
I'd rather just stay at home and doing drugs all night
I don't wanna work, I wanna have fun, but there's no fun for me
Everything is boring, my work, my band, my friends
The cycle keeps on going it never ends

I tried to end my life last year, it was harder than I thought
Because I'm still here and alive, it would be easier if I was not
I don't see the point of anything, I'm sick of all the pain
My medication ain't working, the shrinks all sound the same
After sunshine there's always rain

I said goodbye to all my friends, and my family
And then I took my medicines and tried to fall asleep
The ambulance came, they took me away, they managed to keep me alive
I was gone for a while, but they brought me back, and it happened many times
Turns out that I wasn't ready to die

When I got to the ER my mom was already there
I noticed that she was crying, and her eyes were filled with fear
I'm sorry mom, it won't happen again, I can't put you through this pain
I'm gonna fight this, I know you would do the same