Shandoshis - Losing Control Lyrics

I hope you don't think I've lost my mind
I hope you don't think I'm crazy
This message is getting long so I should just say bye but
The idea of you listening to this
The thought of you on the other side of the line
I can't hang up

Lost control of my emotions
Now I'm crying deep thoughts
Smoking weed numbs the pain
Feel like I'm floating on the ocean
She healed my heart so it's not broken
But I'm still guarded from my past so guess I'd say it's frozen
I'll say it once if you don't know this
That I'm focused on my money
I ain't got time you nigga' s funny aye
Losing control
They gone make me catch a hami aye
Won't tell a soul already kept this pain inside me aye

Highly underestimated that's my name
They know I got potential I can make it either way
But I'm shooting for the stars
Whether you with me or you not
Cause I been grinding all alone so long
I feel I'm all I got
Should of stayed in basketball you not a rapper like your Dad
Should of never had a kid cause it's gonna set you back
Are you sure you really love her do she really got your back
Are you happy in your situation cause you look so sad
I'm alright let me take that back
I'm okay
I'm still suffering but it's okay
Cause I think about my past and it just bring me pain
I wish y'all knew me back before my first heartbreak
I wish I wasn't so afraid to open up
And let you know who Shan really is it just sucks
Cause i shut you all out just hide my pain with a smile
It's unfortunate but do you miss me now

Lost control of my emotions
Now I'm crying deep thoughts
Smoking weed numbs the pain
Feel like I'm floating on the ocean
She healed my heart so it's not broken
But I'm still guarded from my past so guess I'd say it's frozen
I'll say it once if you don't know this
That I'm focused on my money
I ain't got time you nigga' s funny aye
Losing control
They gone make me catch a hami aye
Won't tell a soul already kept this pain inside me aye

How many times I gotta tell you that I'm bleeding
I know you hear me screaming cause you hear the words I'm preaching
See I can't go back to who I was cause he no longer breathing
You took advantage of his kindness left him disbelieving
In who he is and what he stood for
Cause nowadays you try him and then he causing wars
But long ago he was an innocent kid mohawk like Mr. T lookin ugly as shit
that's what it is
But then he grew up and witnessed people closest to him changed
His family grew apart and his soul was truly lost
He met a girl he thought he loved her heart was in the dark
She stabbed him in his back and now he simping like he Bart
The sport he feel in love with he no longer loves
His circle getting smaller shit look like it's closing up
He sitting by himself self people asking him what's up
But he won't fuck wit no one like he quarantined up
Bitch back up give me six feet
Cause all the pain and the emotions got me empty
If I hit you with this blower leave you ten feet
RIP closed casket they gone miss me
Did you mean it when you said that you was down with me forever
Did you mean it when you said you got my back go through whatever
Cause I meant it when I said that you can call on me whenever
I meant everything I said when I gave that fucking letter

Lost control of my emotions
Now I'm crying deep thoughts
Smoking weed numbs the pain
Feel like I'm floating on the ocean
She healed my heart so it's not broken
But I'm still guarded from my past so guess I'd say it's frozen
I'll say it once if you don't know this
That I'm focused on my money
I ain't got time you nigga' s funny aye
Losing control
They gone make me catch a hami aye
Won't tell a soul already kept this pain inside me aye