$pent Lyrics Meanings
by Smba

Say I'm okay but I'm freaking out
Hey pops can you see me now from the clouds?
Are you in the crowd?
Did I make you proud?
Yeah
Yeah
Days like these I'm having doubts
Can you hear me as I'm screaming out
From my mouth
I'm about to drown
I'm breaking down
They say I stick out like a sore thumb
Ain't soar anymore because I'm all numb
Sipping on that malt liquor and rum
Thought it would always solve my problems
But it didn't even solve one
I guess last night I drunk called him
As I hit rock bottom of the bottle
That I used to forget about the sorrows
That involve you
It is my fault that I'm hallow.
That's a "bitter" pill to swallow
Process starts over tomorrow
What do y'all know?
I'm just a "pretty white boy with a silver spoon, grew up in a rich home."
Fuck that
You don't know my predicament
Had to struggle ever since I was a little kid
Dead dad at the age of 15
With a drug addict mom who's still using
And I still say I'm okay
Say you're sorry for me thanks man that's great
Yeah, you're only one phone call away?
"I'll be there if you ever wanna talk"
But ain't that what they all say?
But when you call it's too late
Ain't nobody wanna hear your pain
Unless they get paid it's a shame
That we all gotta be that way
But you still gotta
"Be positive and look up at the blue sky"
But to me that sky's grey
You should know that I'm a realist
You can keep your two scents
I don't want your fucking spare change
Look
I never asked for your sympathy
I never asked for no symphony of people that pity me
Open they mouth to belittle me
What you are lacking is empathy
So I sing
I will not break under all of the weight
And the pressure I hold
No
I used my ex as my anchor
Her bitch ass "left me in the cold"
No
Ask me why I don't t trust no more
Ask me why I don't trust no hoes
Yeah
I'm so depressed
I'm so depressed
Yeah yeah
And all of this stress
It fucks with my head
Yeah yeah
Why you fuckin with my head?
Hmm mm
Got me feeling like I'm "$pent"
It's fuck what she said
I am
Sinking I'm about to drown
But nobody paddles out saving me
From a sea of doubt
That surrounds my pride
Why should I be proud?
All I did was announce
That I'm different take a bow
Walk off stage with a permanent frown
I never did this shit to make y'all proud
I never did it for the fame or rallying crowds
I write for the kids who don't have a voice
Never got to choose
Walking through life all broken and bruised
Nothing to lose
Walk in my shoes
Instead of walking straight
You have to walk in a skew
From the moment you were born
You were already screwed.
Mom has always picked her needles over you
Your suicidal father spread his wings and he flew
Out of the stratosphere
And dissipated in blue
And I'm messed up
Torn down
All I ever do is scorn now
Fake a smile too long
I am sore now
I don't know if I believe in a lord now
Had to move out because the house was foreclosed
Mom heating up a spoon In order to cope
Little girl without her father 13 years old
You may have dealt me shitty cards
But I ain't ready to fold
I am the man with the stone face
Won't ever erode break
Bombs, bullets and Grenades
Still I am not phase
Walking through a war not a scratch
I am unscathed I was only a kid,
And all of the weight got thrown onto my shoulders
My dad always me that's I was his soldier
So I had to keep my composer
I had to stay locked and loaded
Take control of my emotion, so I do not fuck this thing up from exploding like

Say I'm okay but I'm freaking out
Hey pops can you see me now from the clouds?
Are you in the crowd?
Did I make you proud?
Yeah
Yeah
Days like these I'm having doubts
Can you hear me as I'm screaming out
From my mouth
I'm about to drown
I'm breaking down
They say I stick out like a sore thumb
Ain't soar anymore because I'm all numb
Sipping on that malt liquor and rum
Thought it would always solve my problems
But it didn't even solve one
I guess last night I drunk called him
As I hit rock bottom of the bottle
That I used to forget about the sorrows
That involve you
It is my fault that I'm hallow.
That's a "bitter" pill to swallow
Process starts over tomorrow
What do y'all know?
I'm just a "pretty white boy with a silver spoon, grew up in a rich home."
Fuck that
You don't know my predicament
Had to struggle ever since I was a little kid
Dead dad at the age of 15
With a drug addict mom who's still using
And I still say I'm okay
Say you're sorry for me thanks man that's great
Yeah, you're only one phone call away?
"I'll be there if you ever wanna talk"
But ain't that what they all say?
But when you call it's too late
Ain't nobody wanna hear your pain
Unless they get paid it's a shame
That we all gotta be that way
But you still gotta
"Be positive and look up at the blue sky"
But to me that sky's grey
You should know that I'm a realist
You can keep your two scents
I don't want your fucking spare change
Look
I never asked for your sympathy
I never asked for no symphony of people that pity me
Open they mouth to belittle me
What you are lacking is empathy
So I sing
I will not break under all of the weight
And the pressure I hold
No
I used my ex as my anchor
Her bitch ass "left me in the cold"
No
Ask me why I don't t trust no more
Ask me why I don't trust no hoes
Yeah
I'm so depressed
I'm so depressed
Yeah yeah
And all of this stress
It fucks with my head
Yeah yeah
Why you fuckin with my head?
Hmm mm
Got me feeling like I'm "$pent"
It's fuck what she said
I am
Sinking I'm about to drown
But nobody paddles out saving me
From a sea of doubt
That surrounds my pride
Why should I be proud?
All I did was announce
That I'm different take a bow
Walk off stage with a permanent frown
I never did this shit to make y'all proud
I never did it for the fame or rallying crowds
I write for the kids who don't have a voice
Never got to choose
Walking through life all broken and bruised
Nothing to lose
Walk in my shoes
Instead of walking straight
You have to walk in a skew
From the moment you were born
You were already screwed.
Mom has always picked her needles over you
Your suicidal father spread his wings and he flew
Out of the stratosphere
And dissipated in blue
And I'm messed up
Torn down
All I ever do is scorn now
Fake a smile too long
I am sore now
I don't know if I believe in a lord now
Had to move out because the house was foreclosed
Mom heating up a spoon In order to cope
Little girl without her father 13 years old
You may have dealt me shitty cards
But I ain't ready to fold
I am the man with the stone face
Won't ever erode break
Bombs, bullets and Grenades
Still I am not phase
Walking through a war not a scratch
I am unscathed I was only a kid,
And all of the weight got thrown onto my shoulders
My dad always me that's I was his soldier
So I had to keep my composer
I had to stay locked and loaded
Take control of my emotion, so I do not fuck this thing up from exploding like