The real Blackheart - Regrets Lyrics

My trust issues are starting to get worse
I keep finding a new hurt
Every time my guards down I'm finding this new dirt
I want to transfer on to a new earth
I want to transfer on to a new earth

(Basically, this is where I'm at right now)

It's getting harder to see the wreckage through all smoke clouds
How come my life is a pill, that I keep having to choke down
I can only tread water for so long, I'm hoping I don't drown
I feel the gravity pull me closer to things that I've already thrown out
Dealing with self-doubt
Dealing with this neglect
Dealing with lack of respect
You'll never be good enough is what's keeps repeating inside my head
I've got so many regrets an things I could a done different
If I would of played your games then maybe I'd have Aliyah
Just another obstacle that I'm defeating
Because at the end of the road
My spirit it can't be beaten
So, I keep writing like my soul is torn
Back against the wall with my mattress on the floor
The devils wanting in so i put bullets threw the door
I know you want me dead, I almost did it for you

My trust issues are starting to get worse
I keep finding a new hurt
Every time my guards down I'm finding this new dirt
I want to transfer on to a new earth
I want to transfer on to a new earth

We had a shot, but now you've lost me
These water works flood the place like rogue tsunamis
But I wait around for you like I'm stuck in concrete
This isn't exactly where I thought that I'd be
I thought I'd be on top of the world with my queen beside me
I wish that I had seen the lying ahead of time
You sit there watching as you see I'm dying
An that's fine
You can't blame me trying
When those 3 weeks had me gliding to safely like God was guiding me
So, I just did my best, literally gave you everything that I could be