I always do this... Lyrics Meanings
by YKE

I almost couldn't make it up to my computer
To type out all my thoughts cause they feel like intruders
It seems like every time I try to make a friend
I do something to fuck it up and make it end

I got many addictions but this is the worst one
Cause it feels like I'm addicted to being alone
They say keep your circle small but really I don't understand
Cause this circle's so small feel like a one man band

I know that it's not, I got people that care
Sometimes it just feels like life ain't fair
I know that it's not, you gotta make your own way
I just wish I wasn't taking Ls every day

Maybe it's the paranoia
Maybe it's the BPD
Maybe it's the other shit that's mentally affecting me

Self sabotage is my favorite pastime
When I joke I always cross a new line
When they ask me I tell em I'm fine
But really inside I wanna curl up and die

When it's 3am and the loneliness hits
I could sing it again for the people you miss
When it's 3am and the loneliness hits
I could sing it again for the people you miss

But up and away, it's a brand new day
I just wish that I could get all these people to stay
Like a dog always loyal but they all still leave me
Starting to feel like animal cruelty

Wrapped in a cocoon like a depression caterpillar
My life's a movie, psychological thriller
Find me an up and coming rapper that's realer
Bout the loneliness we all feel I know it's killer

What's that? A knock on the door?
Everyone that I thought that I had lost before?
Looks like they're here so they can talk to me
Turns out communication is a major key

Just talk to your people that you still can
They might just fuck around and understand
And if they still don't wanna be your fam
Maybe they're just not part of the plan

When it's 3am and the loneliness hits
I could sing it again for the people you miss
When it's 3am and the loneliness hits
I could sing it again for the people you miss

When it's 3am and the loneliness hits
I could sing it again for the people you miss
When it's 3am and the loneliness hits
I could sing it again for the people you miss

When it's 3am and the loneliness hits
I could sing it again for the people you miss
When it's 3am and the loneliness hits
I could sing it again for the people you miss

When it's 3am and the loneliness hits
I could sing it again for the people you miss
When it's 3am and the loneliness hits
I could sing it again for the people you miss