1nt3grity - Addicted Lyrics

I love the feeling
Of being helpless
I'm use to it
And can't nobody beat on me
like you do it
My Screws loose
My head hurts
I love abuse
You could spit on my face
And will be back cool
You be doin' me dirty
But, I got nun' to lose
I be looking for answer but
You got no excuse
Everyday that I love you
I get a bigger bruise
You supposed to look out
But, yet I look a fool
Mhm like why?
I'm not even posed to hate you but the hate
Don't leave my mind
I don't know why I try
But, I'm so sick of trying
I believe in yo lies even though I know they lies
Although you hurt me all the time
I don't know why I cry
I hate the way I feel but the hope still inside
Burning up till I die
I never cared about pride
I only like the pain cause it makes me feel alive
I'm addicted to pain and not the love
Feel like I'm overdosing don't know if it's enough
Feel like I'm on a trip but clearly I'm not on drugs
But if you had to offer I'll tell you
I need sum' love
I needa few g's
With some fruit snacks a sweet tea
A ice pack for my black eye and broke knee
Some IBuprofen don't worry
I won't O.D
Cause if I tried you prolly would just scold me
You didn't love me
You just wanted to control me
Took some time to realize you a control freak
You don't gotta love me all it's just a repeat
Although you hurt me bad I don't wanna leave
Ain't no good in you but, I can still believe
Looking in the mirror I got no esteem
Every time I fall they don't hear me scream
But, you the cause of it so I let it be

I love the feeling
Of being helpless
I'm use to it
And can't nobody beat on me
like you do it
My Screws loose
My head hurts
I love abuse
You could spit on my face
And will be back cool
You be doin' me dirty
But, I got nun' to lose
I be looking for answer but
You got no excuse
Everyday that I love you
I get a bigger bruise
You supposed to look out
But, yet I look a fool
Mhm like why?
I'm not even posed to hate you but the hate
Don't leave my mind
I don't know why I try
But, I'm so sick of trying
I believe in yo lies even though I know they lies
Although you hurt me all the time
I don't know why I cry
I hate the way I feel but the hope still inside
Burning up till I die
I never cared about pride
I only like the pain cause it makes me feel alive
I'm addicted to pain and not the love
Feel like I'm overdosing don't know if it's enough
Feel like I'm on a trip but clearly I'm not on drugs
But if you had to offer I'll tell you
I need sum' love
I needa few g's
With some fruit snacks a sweet tea
A ice pack for my black eye and broke knee
Some IBuprofen don't worry
I won't O.D
Cause if I tried you prolly would just scold me
You didn't love me
You just wanted to control me
Took some time to realize you a control freak
You don't gotta love me all it's just a repeat
Although you hurt me bad I don't wanna leave
Ain't no good in you but, I can still believe
Looking in the mirror I got no esteem
Every time I fall they don't hear me scream
But, you the cause of it so I let it be