AAvery - FADING Pt. 1 Lyrics

Feel like I'm fading
Feel like I wanna grow old and come back
But the way they be acting been taking my patience
Like bitches been robbing the hospital taking my patients
But I been craving medication
I aim and I shoot but I always keep missing
It's up to the point where I feel like I'm aimless

Cannot be acting like something that ain't me
They say I do they be trying to frame me
I wanna change but they loving the same me
But I want to change who I am cus I hate me

Was at my lowest and worst when you came to my life
You should know it cus that shit was true
But how you gon tell me you wet then go talk to me dry like I never know what I should do
Shit got me stuck

Got me some wine just to help me get up
Got me some friends but I keep myself shut
Gotta go drink when the cup is my crutch
Gotta go cry just to cover it up

Shit if I'm quiet in public just know that there's something that's got me all out of my mind
I got a couple of things to do and say
I guess I ran out of time
Uh

Ran out of time shit
Tired of saying I'm fine shit
Think that it's time to be honest
Time for me to... uh

Rid of pain
Rid of the memories made, with someone who's turning estranged
Things I can't ever let go, but can't do again
You act like we're hardly friends
Took me my energy just to commit
You took my heart but I acted content
Took all my time you done wasted and spent

I did so much but you treat me like shit
I did so much but you always forget
And that's a thing that I'll never forget
How I went sad, then you noticed and dipped

Pain in my chest make it harder to breathe
And these tears in my eyes make it harder to see
How you gon act and you let me get close
But then you cut me off and you letting me bleed

I tried to grow but you drown me in water
I couldn't get air when I planted my seed
Maybe I should've just done what I always should do in these situations and just leave

Fading away
Tryna escape
Your heart was the place
But now I don't feel safe

Love me and hate me it's never one thing
Cus your mind always changing, like every season
Took all your punches I'm done being beaten
If you want me to stay then give me a reason