Bad Era, Kasper - Before Lyrics

I don't know how to feel
No I don't know how to feel
No I don't know how to feel yea...
And I don't know how to feel
And I don't know how to feel...

Done with life so go ahead an get me lifted
And if my hellish demons come, I was never christian
Sorry for the days I tried to put you at a distance
Like life left me breatheless
Like it said good riddance
Why don't we blow the snow try at least to get to Christmas
I use to run the game awhile back, I'm back on fitness
I used to do a lot, but do a lot, I never listened
My demons came and made a wishlist
So I come and get it
And I did or didnt
But man I don't remember
That money, gas is what I could of lent ya
That money vacuum spender
Well if life's a fairy tale
Why is you the pretender
I'm the worst contestant
But I still consider
To be the best contender
When life had more value
It was never tender
But what was last September
Man what do I remember
That shit was never cherished, that shit was lended

I don't know how to feel
No I don't know how to feel
No I don't know how to feel yea...

I hope you're happy
Sleepless nights become painless just like I'm hooked on addy
But I'm hooked on you
Been in my head for a minute, maybe I lost some screws
But I miss you more
Been a long time and I guess you're bored
Should've known this was a double edge sword
Heard those words, then I hit the floor, damn
Whats life like
Cause right now I'm livin' in the past life
Been days when I don't know how to act right
Suicidal thoughts, then I lose sight
Flashback to the good times
Sometimes wanna rewind
To better days when I'm not so depressed
And I walk around school with a puffed up chest but
I'm just a shell
No emotion here
Cause we live in hell
Funny how love just turn to hate
Life fast forwards and I'm runnin' late well
I don't miss you now
Time flies by when you not around
All you ever did was put me down
Sad ass fuck but I'll take the crown, shit
I'll be happy soon, maybe one day touch the moon
But today these words will last forever
As I start my quest for something better