Chasing South - Black Water (I Am Drowning) Lyrics

I've heard of a silver lining before
But I've never found one this close to home
Elation for my long lost friend
Bittersweet for me, 'cause now I'm back on my own
Mirror, mirror- tell me the truth
Is this the vision I am meant to see?
The clouds have failed her, but now they rain on me
I'm sure she won't take it personally

Why couldn't I untie my ankles from the dead weight of my failings?
And better utilise the rope I wasted on me to pull her out, and stop her from derailing?
Even though it was at my hands
I wish I could have only acted on my whims
If only I had seen the depths below me
I probably should've learned how to swim
How to swim

Choking on the black water, the current pulls and I get no stronger
I am, I am drowning
Searching for a sign of land, and I can't see farther than my hand
I am, I am drowning

Please get your head out of the clouds; I know they let you down
And so did I, but I didn't wanna die this way
Didn't wanna die this way
Die this way
And the serenity of the scenery here gives me a new feeling
Somewhere inside of me, I feel my heart skip a beat
Could this be it healing?