Ethan Jewell - sick of talking Lyrics

I think as time passes the worms eat at my broken brain more
And I think as I grow closer to her I'm more afraid of shutting the door
Am I the reason the cogs in your clock get clogged or is it because of the raging past
I wish for serenity but I'm just met with more pain
I wish for dry necessities but I'm just met with more rain
So watch me as I tear apart the notes written to save my soul
Watch me as I tear the sheets off my bed that was supposed to hold both of us
But that's how the rhythm goes
And watch me as I take a hammer to our hearts as the beat slows
And watch me as I bleed from every pore in my godforsaken body
Because I made you hurt
I made you doubt the future
I'm a rose covered in thorns and you just want to pick me
But the last one didn't give me water so I wilted away
I'm a tree and you're the breeze spreading its way through my limbs
But it's a shame all of my leaves fell off because I didn't have a ray of sunshine
I can't practice what I preach because I'm not listening to my lectures
I'm a diamond that turns to coal if you put me under too much pressure
I'm a tapestry left to fall apart on an abandoned wall
I'm a rotted stump, maybe once I stood tall
I'm dropped belongings left forgotten in the lost but never found
I'm the echo of misheard screams that comes from all around
I know it's my fault but I guess I'm just too afraid to admit it
I want a gentle love but I guess I'm just too scared to commit to it
Because what if people don't love me
What if people don't trust me
What if someone's above me
What if I'm born again into unbroken skin
Then what the hell will I do
What if my breath isn't sucked away and my heart doesn't beat too fast
What if my tears don't rip out of my eyes as if the clock is ticking towards eternity
What if I didn't feel empty
What if broken songs weren't what sent me
What if my brain is just begging for attention
My need to be the star of the show, so I wait until then
What if I'm afraid to heal
And what if none of this feels real
So please, tell me if I can sit here and just listen
Because I'm sick of talking

I think as time passes the worms eat at my broken brain more
And I think as I grow closer to her I'm more afraid of shutting the door
Am I the reason the cogs in your clock get clogged or is it because of the raging past
I wish for serenity but I'm just met with more pain
I wish for dry necessities but I'm just met with more rain
So watch me as I tear apart the notes written to save my soul
Watch me as I tear the sheets off my bed that was supposed to hold both of us
But that's how the rhythm goes
And watch me as I take a hammer to our hearts as the beat slows
And watch me as I bleed from every pore in my godforsaken body
Because I made you hurt
I made you doubt the future
I'm a rose covered in thorns and you just want to pick me
But the last one didn't give me water so I wilted away
I'm a tree and you're the breeze spreading its way through my limbs
But it's a shame all of my leaves fell off because I didn't have a ray of sunshine
I can't practice what I preach because I'm not listening to my lectures
I'm a diamond that turns to coal if you put me under too much pressure
I'm a tapestry left to fall apart on an abandoned wall
I'm a rotted stump, maybe once I stood tall
I'm dropped belongings left forgotten in the lost but never found
I'm the echo of misheard screams that comes from all around
I know it's my fault but I guess I'm just too afraid to admit it
I want a gentle love but I guess I'm just too scared to commit to it
Because what if people don't love me
What if people don't trust me
What if someone's above me
What if I'm born again into unbroken skin
Then what the hell will I do
What if my breath isn't sucked away and my heart doesn't beat too fast
What if my tears don't rip out of my eyes as if the clock is ticking towards eternity
What if I didn't feel empty
What if broken songs weren't what sent me
What if my brain is just begging for attention
My need to be the star of the show, so I wait until then
What if I'm afraid to heal
And what if none of this feels real
So please, tell me if I can sit here and just listen
Because I'm sick of talking