Ezekiel Rage, St.La - Amos 5:18 Lyrics

Woe to you who long for the day of the lord
Why do you long for the day of the lord
That day will be darkness, not light

I don't care what is going on outside
Those are the walls you built for me in your eternal love
And I shall forever be grateful
For you are giving me shelter

As long as I am inside of you, you are inside of me
You fulfil me, you fill me up
I am privileged, for my soul is reserved for you, my one and only master
My flesh is worthless as long as you take care of my soul

And I can't hide
My pain
Your lies are slowly killing me
You open your eyes but you can't see

You're not benign
Inside
For you there's nothing left to gain
You belive in god, your life's in vain

Sometimes I just wanna pray and due to my reason I never do
I never pray to this God, never pray the shit out of my fucking head
Because I know that all those prayers could not be made responsible
For the fulfillment of all my wishes

Maybe I got that wrong
Maybe praying is not about begging someone to help
But to show me what I actually wish for, by forcing me to compose a proper sentence
A description of an aim which I don't know how to accomplish yet

And I can't hide
My pain
Your lies are slowly killing me
You open your eyes but you can't see

You're not benign
Inside
For you there's nothing left to gain
You belive in god, your life's in vain

Hah
You have not forsaken me
I know that. I can feel it
You can't have forsaken me, for you have actually never existed
I can feel it, this disease in me, it killed them all, it will kill me

And I can't hide
My pain
Your lies are slowly killing me
You open your eyes but you can't see

Yet it is not your punishment, it is my own achievement
Ooh yes, you showed me what love is, and you made me love my own destruction
I love every kind of dysfunction in me, it shows you are nothing but a fucking failure
You have not killed them
You can't kill anyone, you are not more than a useless symbol made up by mankind
And it is mankind that made a fucking mess out of me

You're not benign
Inside
For you there's nothing left to gain
You belive in god, your life's in vain

And I love this mess that is me
And you taught me to share my love, didn't you
I'll be a good girl
I'll show you how it feels to be the mess that is your love