Flynn Germain - Performative Lyrics

If the needing is performative then so's the wanting
But I became a needle you could never push through
Wanna be reciprocal the way I used to
Even now I wanna be the bucket list you

Cross off, came under fire, got my rocks off
Pulled out the underwire, bound them down
Became an elephant for you to take the pieces you want out

Well I'm learning to convince myself to wanna be
Something you're not ever gonna want withstanding
Got a new perspective on my way of falling, I stuck the landing

And the fact of what my body is is not a promise
Took an oath and jesus christ I didn't want it
Halfway through a bad idea, changed my tuning
I'm still mooning over you

When I got home, everybody said my name
And everybody said the same thing, the same thing
"Oh sweetheart, how you've changed
God, you used to be so unbearably uncomforting
I never knew how to respond to all your mumbling
I'm so happy for you, I'm so happy for you
Never mind the bad things I thought about when you were strange
Never mind the bad things I thought about when you were strange"

And the fact of what my body is is not a promise
Took an oath and jesus christ I didn't want it
Martyred my whole body for this stupid castle
I'm still rattled over you

When i got home, everybody said my name
And everybody said the same thing, the same thing
"Oh sweetheart how you've changed
God you used to be so unbearably uncomforting
I never knew how to respond to all your mumbling
I'm so happy for you, I'm so happy for you
Never mind the bad things I thought about when you were strange
Never mind the bad things I thought about when you were strange
Never mind the bad things I thought about when you were strange
Never mind the bad things I thought about when you were strange"