Third Eye Blind - Shipboard Cook Lyrics

I wanna go to the ocean
and send a postcard of my loneliness
Forgetting you is so elusive
I run away but it's always this
You're the only one
I love
It's always been you

And I wish I was conscripted in the Merchant Marines
Shanghaied into service to sails and machines
just to stay alive
(oh)
And my sister keeps it simple she's a shipboard cook
She can draw a line, but if you take a look
She's kinda worried though
(oh)

'Cause I'm hoping you will find me
I keep hoping you will find me
Hoping you will find me
I keep hoping you will find me
(ooh ooh)

I'm always a ghost
I tried your gypsy tarot readings, some seance stunt
I keep an open mind but I think it's just a front
Want to believe it though
(oh)

My sister says "Forget her boy, that's all that you need"
pitching magical elixirs and bottles full of mead
for a broken heart
It's too late for that

?
Still rowing up to tell the truth
I lost myself and that's where I lost you
Oh wanna go, I'm not waiting for it
I'm always a ghost

You're about as haunted as a darkened basement
I've got all the chances of a dog in a settlement
All about her secrets, she'll never tell
I ride along without 'em on a deep sea swell
I heard there's someone new, and she starts to talk
She's the merry widow on the widow's walk
And the fear is I have no one no matter where you are
In this twisted fucked up film noir

And I'm hoping you will find me
I keep hoping you will find me
Hoping you will find me
I keep hoping you will find me
Yeah yeah yeah

? my voices ?
Sing loud enough to tell the truth
I lost myself and that's where I lost you
Oh oh wanna go, I've got whipping paws
I'm always a ghost

I'm always a ghost
I'm always a ghost
I'm always a ghost

So learn my voices to your ?
Sing loud enough to tell the truth
I lost myself and that's where I lost you
Oh oh wanna go, I've got whipping paws
I'm always a ghost

So learn my voices to your ?
Sing loud enough to tell the truth
I lost myself and that's where I lost you
Oh oh wanna go, I've got whipping paws
I'm always a ghost