Christopher Leon - Trauma Lyrics

I just got off the phone with my momma
Haven't talked in over a year and it all started from drama
When I was younger
I was such a difficult child
But now I'm grown and everything is more difficult now
I was hit one too many times
Now I'm looking at 30 with all this anger inside
It's outta line
Tryna learn how to forgive before I run outta time
Never knew how to get it out 'til I learned how to rhyme
Listening to Eminem
Couple songs from 50 Cent
Many Men, I wish I could go back and begin again
My past hurt has kept me cut off from so many friends
The pain is deep but I'm still here to win
Yeah
Bullied my little brother just to feel bigger
Went to a school where everyone called me nigger
I was so fucking depressed
And even now going to therapy I still can't fix that hole in my chest
I'm broken
My life on repeat
My uncle moved to DC
Now I'm out in LA and can't nobody reach me
This ain't the way I planned it
But it's the way it must be
And I don't know much about God so fuck all of that preaching
As a kid my best friend was my uncle
I was scared of my father but he kept me out of trouble
Took me on some adventures outside that small town bubble
I can never repay you Carib just know that I love you for real
I talked to my dad
Told him grievances I had
Couldn't control my temper so it turned out all bad
I should call my parents, offer some apologies
But when my momma called I told her not to bother me
A stubborn nigga I am
A man filled with regret
What of it nigga, I can
Learn to forgive myself
Pretend not to give a damn
But put my palm to my cheek
And feel the tears in my hand

I been dealing with this
Trauma, Trauma, Trauma
It's hard to live with all this
Trauma, Trauma, Trauma
My heart is healing from this
Trauma, Trauma, Trauma
Will I make it through this
Trauma, Trauma, Trauma
Yeah, yeah