Devin Vegas - Real Talk Lyrics

Real talk i dont fear yall no more
My hearts so sore
I show no compassion
Or no remorse for my actions
Im lost in the blackness and fading away
Crossin my paths but i stay in my ways
And the day that i change is the day that i die
You can see the pain in the grey in my eyes
I was born with a curse so ill die with the pain
But for what its worth, i will try to explain
My mind is derranged
My thoughts are spuratic
Of course im an addict, its force of a habit
Im caught with this sadness
I thought i was past it
So many times but i guess i was wrong
Still tears in my eyes and stress from the long
Days and the fights
I was waiting for lights
That ain't never came so i stayed in the nights but
At the same time tryna find a broad to wife up
Knife cuts
Caused from the thought that they all never liked us
I talk to the stars, hoping theyd speak back
I offer my all and show it through these raps
Each lap keep scratchin at my cuts
And im itchin for blood where the fuck are these fleas at?
Im stressed in the evening
The more i move foward, the less i can see them
I guess im possesed by this demon
Yes i was schemin the day i was born
With a flame and a storm
But satans spawn came into play way later on
So at least i was peacefull
Until i heard that voice say
"i stand in the sand here to greet you, my evil has reached you, dont be alarmed i just need you to bleed through, let this hate take you and lead you. ill make you a deal too, ill wield you with skill but you still gotta feel blue"
Kill too? will do, i ain't give a fuck bruh
I just wanna feel new
I ain't wanna feel this frickin pain no more
With the same old whores
Cause usually this bitch is fuckin using me for shit
T-t-truthfully im lit
Cause in the way my mind is racin, i ain't got no time or patience
Look at all this time im wastin
I be climbin goin ape shit
For these diamonds i am chasin
In my mind and i can taste it aye
A lot of people know me as a target or price
But i keep growin with my homies till we larger than life
Hearts harder than ice
We so close to the stars but far from our dreams
They 'posed to be ours so i rob for the team
And of course im a demon
There isnt one thing here that i still believe in
Jesus, maybe im a little more lost than i seem man

Real talk i feel lost
Real talk i feel lost
I dont think that ill ever get healed naw
With a soul thats centered from a fuckin distant hate
I guess this is fate
Im only here for a moment, till i disipate
I said real talk i feel lost
I dont think that ill ever get healed naw
With a soul thats centered from a fuckin distant hate

A fiend till im famous
I see my creations, thief and a rapist
Beliefs of a satanist
They sayin that Vegas a self centered sadist
But yall can't complain cause you made me this way bitch
"listen to me Vegas, you dont have to take this"
Bitch just save it
Whys it those with good intentions seem to finish last?
Ive made some bad decisions but i leave em in the past
And money dont mean shit if you ain't got nobody to dream with
Cause life ain't based on how bloody the scene is
I study my feelings
And right now im feeling like garbage, im trying to stop this
For real but it is hard cause im feeling like dropping
Im causin more scars every pill that im poppin
And how would you deal with the weight on my shoulders?
And how does my mom feel, her babys bipolar
Yall are always up in my personal life
But couldn't give a fuck when im hurtin though right?
Poppin perks and those vics
Somethings tellin me that it ain't really worth it, dont fight
So i sit in most nights
Shit faced then i hurl
Misplaced in this world
Self loathing and bold in a broken tomb
Dreams crawl out of an open wound
Im hoping soon that a different me will be a-fuckin-woken oohh
And it makes me mad
They tell me heavens nice, someone take me there
My chest needs a rest cause im breaking, bad
Can't change the past
Only better your future and make it last
Yeah so until the day i die, imma slay these tracks
Yeah, its vegas man