Julien Baker - Red Door Lyrics

Gonna break your hand
Tell me not to fight anymore
'Cause I feel yellow as a coward
Pale as a flickering bulb
Outside of a liquor store
So knock me out again
Count backwards from ten
As I relay the colors as they appear to me
From the bottom of a cement floor

And do you see me?

'Cause oh, how far do you think I can go
Beneath before you won't follow me there?

You don't understand
And I know last time I swore
Not to make a scene and now I'm wandering into traffic screaming
To set me on fire in the middle of the street
Bend my knees and paint the concrete
The color of my bloody knuckles
Pulling splinters from the chapel door

And do you see me anymore?

Oh, how far do you think I can go
Beneath before you won't follow?
Down to the center of a black hole
A ruined sinner and a wasted soul

And I want you
I wanna let you break my heart
I wanna let you break my heart
I wanna let you break my heart
And I wanna let you break me