Mariel Gesualdi - Laugh Again Lyrics

Oh I'm spiraling
Worried about the future, worried that I am
Never doing enough, can't keep holding in
All of my emotions

And I make it worse
Stressed over the best thing that I call the worst
Should be in the moment, just ride out the hurt
But I'm feeling hopeless

As I keep wondering

Am I ever gonna laugh again?
Tell me am I gonna smile
'Cause even though I do sometimes
It ends with tears all in my eyes
Am I ever gonna love again?
Or will I always wonder why?
I never seem to be enough
Everyone always leaves my life
I don't want to keep spending my time
Thinking back and wishing you were still mine
Oh right now it is what it is
But am I ever gonna laugh again?
Tell me am I gonna laugh again

My friends all say
It's okay that right now I don't feel okay
Stop comparing myself to others my age
But I can't help it

And I know that I
Shouldn't hold myself to anyone's timeline
And most of them post pictures that just seem to lie
Still it's hard to see it

As I keep wondering

Am I ever gonna laugh again?
Tell me am I gonna smile
'Cause even though I do sometimes
It ends with tears all in my eyes
Am I ever gonna love again?
Or will I always wonder why?
I never seem to be enough
Everyone always leaves my life
I don't want to keep spending my time
Thinking back and wishing you were still mine
Oh right now it is what it is
But am I ever gonna laugh again?
Tell me am I gonna laugh again

I don't want to keep spending my time
Thinking back and wishing you were still mine
Oh right now it is what it is
But am I ever gonna laugh again?
Am I ever gonna laugh again?