Neel Koul, Luna - Quotidian Fraca for Forbearance and Love Lyrics

If you fall in love with me don't
I'm here to warn you about
What you might be
Getting yourself into
I smile by habit not by choice
I giggle out of empathy and humor
Or embarrassment but never to
Purposefully spite

Cause I'm anxious Twenty four seven
Constantly trembling with fright
Chasing the pipe dream of being loved
Whilst fighting chronic PTSD
Among numerous illnesses
Praying to God to end this lovelessness
So I can no longer feel the need to
Efface myself Just embrace myself
But

I face my evil self
Wasting my waking hours looking
At a made up effigy of her sweet face
Hectoring myself about removing
The nectar ever joyous factor
And glace making the cherry on top
Of the unfair slice of my life's cake
Sour as I devour my tower of joy
Every second, hour, like a roaring lion
Rawr rawr can't hang in there
It's hard to think about tomorrow
Yeah

But I move
Regardless the test of times
I might be a
Crepuscular & Nocturnal creature
Combined
Profusely purposefully intertwined.
Dying everyday Every night
I unwind and whine
Unwind and whine
Why aren't you mine
Why aren't you mine

It's a Quotidian Fraca for
Forbearance and love
Forever a loser, at the end of the line
Face is an adit to
My soul that isn't mine and

And you should probably know that
I'm emotional, like, really emotional
In fact I may even think
I have you fooled about how I'm
Feeling, but because my dad didn't
Raise a liar, I am forced to
Unintentionally wear my big sobby
Heart on my sleeve

Simultaneously I weave
A cloak of invisibility
Cause all I seek is refuge
On a steady track
Behind the strongest bars
So, here I am
Casting up days left In my life
And counting stars
Countless scars
Gazillion people throwing punches
Trying to knock me out

But all I want is love

If you want to fall in love with me
Be my guest, but beware
I've got a
Daedalian heart
Regardless, the point

The point is I'm a tangled mess
Of contradictory things
But I'm not saying this to scare you
I'm saying this
To warn and protect you
And to properly love you
And tell you
Not to worry about a thing
Because remember I am
An all- or- nothing person
So if I fall in love I am all in for you
And that If you somehow fall
In love with me don't
I'll fall In love with your phases
Both dark and bright
I'll fall in love with how you pretend
You're not emotional despite the fact
Your feelings are trying so hard
To escape your eyes

I'm not going to fall in love
With just you
You're too complex and complicated
For it to be that simple and so all I
Ask is that if you fall in love with me
You fall in love
With my infinite Nodus' too