Ozzy Apollo - ...define consciousness Lyrics

So many thoughts in my head, so many thoughts in my head
Okay I’m losing my conscience
No lie don’t know if I’m conscious
I guess in the midst nonsense, I got caught up in the darkness
And the voice in my head; obnoxious
I lay in my bed all thoughtless
I stay on my side all heartless
Might be homicide to my conscious
I scream till my throat bleeds, I swear I can’t control me
I scream till my lungs burn, I swear that I don’t know me
I cry cuz I don’t learn, ain’t no such thing as the old me
I’m the same me, I just went through shit
Had phases they went through quick
I’m losing my conscience, no lie don’t know if I’m conscious
And the voice in my head obnoxious
Might be homicide to my conscious
Might be cuz I got too much shit to say
All of these words can’t fit in the page
Losing my mind just tryna think straight
It’s a big weight, until the big gate
Shit am I psycho cuz I can’t sleep at night without Nyquil
Everyday feels like the same cycle
Load up the rifle, tears on the bible
Am I spiteful if i’m the rival
Hate myself, I should take myself
Lie in the grave that I made myself
Made up my mind, I don’t need no help
I smoke everyday, I don’t need my health I don’t need my liver
Drinking so much, so please reconsider
Thinking so much, am I just a sinner or a child of god
Life ain’t shit but a loud mirage
Get fucked by death that’s a proud menage
While I blow my brains on the promenade
I’m losing my conscience
No lie don’t know I’m conscious
I just know pain cuz shit don’t change
Losing my lane, I should split my frame
Everything tastes the same, hate to say it
Everything fades to grey, hate to say it
Lookin outside and the grass is dead
Just like positive thoughts in my head
I lay in my bed all drunk and misled
Say I’m on top but I’m close to the edge
I’m close to the brink, more than you think
Let my blood fall on the floor and the sink
Then I just drink, then I just smoke
Till my lungs hurt every time I move
Swear I don’t blink, Ima just roll
Everyday feel like a different mood
Swear to god I’m losing my conscience
Won’t lie don’t know if I’m conscious
On edge I ain’t moving to cautious
Head spinnin' I’m feeling so nauseous
Am I conscious, am I conscious
Am I dead yet, was it gorgeous
Was it justified or was it just a lie
Suicidal thoughts that come alive
Am I conscious, am I conscious, am I conscious
Going to my mind with an AK, hoping that it vacates
Nerves on mayday mayday mayday
Back in my hay day everyday payday
Now I’m at the gateway, I sit in my car and I scream
Puffing Nirvana dro by any means
Shotgun the smoke so I lay it out clean
My blood maroon, word to Levine
Thoughts keep spinning I’m lost deep in it
Off with my head, what it cost me sippin'
Awfully led to monopoly visions
Will I live to see another day
Please just tell me it’s gon be okay
Overdose, hold me close
Don’t let go close the door
Don’t let go don't let go
I let go of my conscious
Won’t lie don’t know if I’m conscious
I guess in the midst nonsense
I got caught up in the darkness
And the voice in my head; obnoxious
I lay in my bed all thoughtless
I stay on my side all heartless
Might be homicide to my conscious
On edge I ain’t moving to cautious
Head spinnin' I’m feeling so nauseous
Am I conscious
Am I conscious
Cuz I'm anxious
Am I conscious
Losing patience
Am I conscious
Am I dead yet
Was it gorgeous
Am I conscious
Am I conscious
Am I conscious
Wake me up

So many thoughts in my head, so many thoughts in my head
Okay I’m losing my conscience
No lie don’t know if I’m conscious
I guess in the midst nonsense, I got caught up in the darkness
And the voice in my head; obnoxious
I lay in my bed all thoughtless
I stay on my side all heartless
Might be homicide to my conscious
I scream till my throat bleeds, I swear I can’t control me
I scream till my lungs burn, I swear that I don’t know me
I cry cuz I don’t learn, ain’t no such thing as the old me
I’m the same me, I just went through shit
Had phases they went through quick
I’m losing my conscience, no lie don’t know if I’m conscious
And the voice in my head obnoxious
Might be homicide to my conscious
Might be cuz I got too much shit to say
All of these words can’t fit in the page
Losing my mind just tryna think straight
It’s a big weight, until the big gate
Shit am I psycho cuz I can’t sleep at night without Nyquil
Everyday feels like the same cycle
Load up the rifle, tears on the bible
Am I spiteful if i’m the rival
Hate myself, I should take myself
Lie in the grave that I made myself
Made up my mind, I don’t need no help
I smoke everyday, I don’t need my health I don’t need my liver
Drinking so much, so please reconsider
Thinking so much, am I just a sinner or a child of god
Life ain’t shit but a loud mirage
Get fucked by death that’s a proud menage
While I blow my brains on the promenade
I’m losing my conscience
No lie don’t know I’m conscious
I just know pain cuz shit don’t change
Losing my lane, I should split my frame
Everything tastes the same, hate to say it
Everything fades to grey, hate to say it
Lookin outside and the grass is dead
Just like positive thoughts in my head
I lay in my bed all drunk and misled
Say I’m on top but I’m close to the edge
I’m close to the brink, more than you think
Let my blood fall on the floor and the sink
Then I just drink, then I just smoke
Till my lungs hurt every time I move
Swear I don’t blink, Ima just roll
Everyday feel like a different mood
Swear to god I’m losing my conscience
Won’t lie don’t know if I’m conscious
On edge I ain’t moving to cautious
Head spinnin' I’m feeling so nauseous
Am I conscious, am I conscious
Am I dead yet, was it gorgeous
Was it justified or was it just a lie
Suicidal thoughts that come alive
Am I conscious, am I conscious, am I conscious
Going to my mind with an AK, hoping that it vacates
Nerves on mayday mayday mayday
Back in my hay day everyday payday
Now I’m at the gateway, I sit in my car and I scream
Puffing Nirvana dro by any means
Shotgun the smoke so I lay it out clean
My blood maroon, word to Levine
Thoughts keep spinning I’m lost deep in it
Off with my head, what it cost me sippin'
Awfully led to monopoly visions
Will I live to see another day
Please just tell me it’s gon be okay
Overdose, hold me close
Don’t let go close the door
Don’t let go don't let go
I let go of my conscious
Won’t lie don’t know if I’m conscious
I guess in the midst nonsense
I got caught up in the darkness
And the voice in my head; obnoxious
I lay in my bed all thoughtless
I stay on my side all heartless
Might be homicide to my conscious
On edge I ain’t moving to cautious
Head spinnin' I’m feeling so nauseous
Am I conscious
Am I conscious
Cuz I'm anxious
Am I conscious
Losing patience
Am I conscious
Am I dead yet
Was it gorgeous
Am I conscious
Am I conscious
Am I conscious
Wake me up