Phylax - Deadlock Lyrics

I'm falling down
Stuck in repeat
Useless words spill from my drunken tongue
With a mind full of belligerency

I'm numb
Trying to find a remedy
No drug can fill this void in me
It's so hard not to give into defeat

I am stagnant on unstable ground
Afraid of falling down
A shattered recluse
I try to calm down
Pick up the pieces
Go back to refute and accuse
Full of lies, I'm abandoned and deprived

My hollow body stuck in routine
I mend one dispute for another just to haunt me
I live on without any life
A walking phantom of my own disguise

I am terrified of the shadow I provide

I am stagnant on unstable ground
Afraid of falling down
A shattered recluse
I try to calm down
Pick up the pieces
Go back to refute and accuse
Full of lies, I'm abandoned and deprived

Breathe, drink, try to fall asleep
Wake and start again
Find that drunken release

Breathe and drink
Breathe and drink
Breathe and drink

Over and over again
It's just who I am

It's so hard
It is so hard not to give into defeat