Raw Nerve Endings - Futile Search Lyrics

Demons from a barren past won't let me be
I cannot think, I cannot speak
I can't ignore what's left in me

Digging deep down a hole cratered from before
Find solace in rest, the peace in mess
So futile, such a bore

Kept running in circles once again
(I'm looking for myself)
Still trying my best to lift myself
(I'm looking for myself)
Where does this path lead to in the trench
(I'm looking for myself)
Why can't I try to gain control instead
(I'm looking for myself)

Emerged, choking from the ashes that have remained
Ran away, got caught again
An endless cycle that won't break

Head first into a stronghold of the high
Shaking off the pain, the rage, the sorrow
The paranoia inside

Kept running in circles once again
(I'm looking for myself)
Still trying my best to lift myself
(I'm looking for myself)
Where does this path lead to in the trench
(I'm looking for myself)
Why can't I try to gain control instead
(I'm looking for myself)

Kept running in circles once again
(I'm looking for myself)
Still trying my best to lift myself
(I'm looking for myself)
Where does this path lead to in the trench
(I'm looking for myself)
Why can't I try to gain control instead
(I'm looking for myself)