Sam Tompkins - Not So Grey Lyrics

I've been depressive for far too long man this shit is heavy
I'm no detective but writing these songs is evidently
So reflective of every feeling I've ever had
I'm so receptive to it maybe I'm more like my dad
Than I admit
Emotions are a myth
This worlds a bag of shit
And maybe I should quit
'Cause I
Haven't felt nothin' in a while
I know life is never comfy so

If you didn't get up out of bed today
You really wanna die
And nothings ever changed
And you blame yourself
Get out your own way
And make it rain in hell

I don't wanna hate myself anymore
Wanna live a different life, choose an open door
I don't wanna taste the fountain through a broken straw
I want the water to pour over me and nothing more
Is that way too much to ask or is that okay?
I don't wanna wish another fucking day away
Oh I know the sun is shining less than yesterday
Put my blue up in the sky until it's not so grey

Not so grey
Until it's not so grey
'Til it's not so grey

Yeah, yeah
I never got why my dad would always stay in his bed
Now looking back it was preventing a family death
I'm glad he fought all of his demons, I'm happy he won
I'm proud to say that he's alive and the same for his son
Take the bad with the good and pray the latter is worth
All of the hassle and cancels out all of the hurt
Even though I never thought that life could ever work
I kept it pushing now I'm looking at it in reverse
If I ever have a kid I just hope that he knows
He can always open up to me whenever he is low
I will never look at him as if to say he's mad
All that it means is that he's just a bit more like his dad
Than he'll admit
Emotions are a myth
But life ain't all that shit
So he will never quit
'Cause I
Will love him 'til the day that I die
I know life is never comfy so

If you didn't get up out of bed today
You really wanna die
And nothings ever changed
And you blame yourself
Get out your own way
And make it rain in hell

I don't wanna hate myself anymore
Wanna love a different life, choose an open door
I don't wanna taste the fountain through a broken straw
I want the water to pour over me and nothing more
Is that way too much to ask or is that okay?
I don't wanna wish another fucking day away
Oh I know the sun is shining less than yesterday
Put my blue up in the sky until it's not so grey

Not so grey
Until it's not so grey
'Til it's not so grey
('Til it's not so grey)
('Til it's not so grey)
('Til it's not so grey)
('Til it's not so grey)
('Til it's not so grey)
('Til it's not so grey)