DeFalco, Ka'ala - on the outside Lyrics

Optimistic, I'm just fine
PTSD all inside
Losing you messed up my mind
Feels like it could happen at any time
But remembering is worth it
Don't wanna let these feelings surface
On the outside, I try to act like everything is alright
It's almost like I don't have to miss you
But the truth is I do
It hurts to think about you
And on the inside, I don't feel right. I wish I could cry
But that would mean that I'd have to feel you
And the pain is too true
Forever lost without you
It's depression. I'm not fine
Think about you all the time
I really want to get away
You're just a reminder every day
But loving you is worth it
Sometimes I feel I don't deserve it
On the outside, I try to act like everything is alright
It's almost like I don't have to miss you
But the truth is I do
It hurts to think about you
And on the inside, I don't feel right. I wish I could cry
But that would mean that I'd have to feel you
And the pain is too true
Forever lost without you
On the outside, I try to act like everything is alright
It's almost like I don't have to miss you
But the truth is I do
It hurts to think about you
And on the inside, I don't feel right. I wish I could cry
But that would mean that I'd have to feel you
And the pain is too true
Forever lost without you

Optimistic, I'm just fine
PTSD all inside
Losing you messed up my mind
Feels like it could happen at any time
But remembering is worth it
Don't wanna let these feelings surface
On the outside, I try to act like everything is alright
It's almost like I don't have to miss you
But the truth is I do
It hurts to think about you
And on the inside, I don't feel right. I wish I could cry
But that would mean that I'd have to feel you
And the pain is too true
Forever lost without you
It's depression. I'm not fine
Think about you all the time
I really want to get away
You're just a reminder every day
But loving you is worth it
Sometimes I feel I don't deserve it
On the outside, I try to act like everything is alright
It's almost like I don't have to miss you
But the truth is I do
It hurts to think about you
And on the inside, I don't feel right. I wish I could cry
But that would mean that I'd have to feel you
And the pain is too true
Forever lost without you
On the outside, I try to act like everything is alright
It's almost like I don't have to miss you
But the truth is I do
It hurts to think about you
And on the inside, I don't feel right. I wish I could cry
But that would mean that I'd have to feel you
And the pain is too true
Forever lost without you