Heinous - Hard Year Lyrics

Warned I'd be an addict now I got bad habits
Woke up same shit take a hit now I pass it
Monotonous living everyday, never winning
Love sinning
I'll be lucky if I get more time to live it
Always love a good time
So I get real high, we just having good times
Know I have a dark side
My tongue says life's hard so I bite it
Nothing I love more than a riot
Born being reckless, know I can't help it
Sometimes I get high
So I can't see this
That's the only way I know that lets me leave this
Babe there ain't a way you could ever change it
Know I'm really sad really love it when I'm faded
Tend to get high when I'm on the verge of breaking
Been a hard year we've had hard times
So we take a couple fat lines
Know you don't agree with my methods
But I know you know its the only thing that's helping
When your stuck in your head like me
You just wonder why, why am I not happy
All the reasons why, why I'll never be
If you've seen what I've seen then you would see
Been a hard year we've had hard times
Compensating with the fat lines
As a kid whos fighting his depression
Time goes on I don't think the traumas helping
I know it ain't helping it's the only thing that I see
When I dream baby
Makes you wanna meet the light sometimes
It's hard but I'm fighting
Still trying today somehow better than I've ever been
Don't make since I know I should be broken
Know somedays are harder than the others
Every single one of them I miss my fucking brother
Know there's a lot of things on my mind daily
So I hope you understand why I'm faded
If you can't that is something that I understand
Fighting to survive I'm just trying to be a better man

Warned I'd be an addict now I got bad habits
Woke up same shit take a hit now I pass it
Monotonous living everyday, never winning
Love sinning
I'll be lucky if I get more time to live it
Always love a good time
So I get real high, we just having good times
Know I have a dark side
My tongue says life's hard so I bite it
Nothing I love more than a riot
Born being reckless, know I can't help it
Sometimes I get high
So I can't see this
That's the only way I know that lets me leave this
Babe there ain't a way you could ever change it
Know I'm really sad really love it when I'm faded
Tend to get high when I'm on the verge of breaking
Been a hard year we've had hard times
So we take a couple fat lines
Know you don't agree with my methods
But I know you know its the only thing that's helping
When your stuck in your head like me
You just wonder why, why am I not happy
All the reasons why, why I'll never be
If you've seen what I've seen then you would see
Been a hard year we've had hard times
Compensating with the fat lines
As a kid whos fighting his depression
Time goes on I don't think the traumas helping
I know it ain't helping it's the only thing that I see
When I dream baby
Makes you wanna meet the light sometimes
It's hard but I'm fighting
Still trying today somehow better than I've ever been
Don't make since I know I should be broken
Know somedays are harder than the others
Every single one of them I miss my fucking brother
Know there's a lot of things on my mind daily
So I hope you understand why I'm faded
If you can't that is something that I understand
Fighting to survive I'm just trying to be a better man