Ironic - A Letter From Your Son Lyrics

Another year has passed
I aint hearing you I hope you hearing us
I hope you're feeling proud, I hope you feel the love
I hope its you who picked me up when I was nearly done
I swear I think about you every day, sometimes I wanna scream
Or wake up from this mess but sadly this is not a dream
And it seems like its only getting worse now
Its hard for me to not talk about you in every verse now
Sitting at your funerals wishing we could reverse
I was meant to show you the world this isn't what you deserved
I was meant to buy you a house I just wanted to see you stress free
You made sure we were good then you struggled until the next week
Its hard to be happy when I reflect cause every time I do
I get reminded of all the pain that you were fighting through
They say it gets easier and I think that's lie as you
Get older you just have more distractions to help you hide the truth

All these questions I don't know how to answer
Life is hard but its harder learning without a father
Felt myself gong down a path till I found my karma
I was out of hope while the other kids were out of data
When we lost dad its like half of me wasn't there
I started to understand and you started losing your hair
They said you didn't have long its so hard for me to prepare
Holding your cold hands like why can't it be me in there
You weren't here to see me starting and then finishing high school
You weren't here when I was ready just to give up on life
You weren't here when I dropped the ball and I picked up a mic
You wont be there for the time when i have some kids and a wife
I guess thats why I'm hesitant to love
I was young but I can't help but think I never did enough
Just for you, I'm standing tall and I aint ever gonna run
I hope you hear me, this is just another letter from your son