Julia Mark - Honesty Lyrics

From afar an observer may infer that we lovers at a bar
We are not, we are just friends
I tell myself again and again and again
Though I almost always almost reach out for your hand

I will never tell you this
Honestly my honesty is selfish
You may have the ears to hear this but your heart has disappeared
Inside the love of another and my odds are way outnumbered

Still I wonder if you've ever wondered
Is it dangerous to ruminate?
It's draining to extrapolate the meaning of gaze
Pull potential from a phrase

The more that is unknown, the more I'm staring anxious at my phone
I wait for you to say, "What's on your mind today?"
I will never tell you this
Honestly my honesty is selfish
You may have the ears to hear this but your heart has disappeared
Inside the love of another and my odds are way outnumbered
Still I wonder if you've ever wondered

And I, and I wait for a secret sign
At my, at my gate where the stars align
And I'll, and I'll skate along a winding line
All the time anticipating
All the days deliberating
While my words are waiting in the wings
Practicing the parts of the songs they want to sing

I will never tell you this
Honestly my honesty is selfish
You may have the ears to hear this but your heart has disappeared
Inside the love of another and my odds are way outnumbered
Still I wonder if you've ever wondered