Lucidity - Another Dream Lyrics

I'll go crazy if I see you in another dream
It reminds me what you've done to me
As of lately, I'm just stuck, I'm somewhere in between
Keep on praying that you come to me
It's okay you wanna blame me
Yeah, you really wanna blame me
But we left it on a maybe
My insecurities, they break me

I still get shivers when I think about you
Used to say there was no way that I could live without you
You told me not to text you and I'm just about to
All the years that I loved you but what's that shit amount to
I lost count of my tears, it takes a toll I'm okay
And it's clear you never wanted to stay
And it's clear you wanna push me just to see when I break
Got me wrapped up in these chains with no way to escape
I still think about your smile, think about your touch
Your words echo to this day when you said you've had enough
I still hear it when you told me that you thought you were in love
Accept that I will never see you, but I cannot overcome
Used to feel you in my arms, now I feel you losing interest
I try to send you texts, but I'm only reaching crickets
You told me not to hit you but you know I couldn't listen
I really think about it, our relationship is cryptic
I got pain on my face, but I doubt that you notice
I know your smile is fake, you ain't with me, it's showin'
I ain't dealt with my demons so there's no way I'll expose it
If I saw you, I already know I'd probably be chokin'
I got words that I can't speak
I'm afraid to fall asleep
I'm afraid to fall in love, and you should know you cut me deep
I'm afraid that it's my fault and I could never change
The tears falling like the rain outside my window pane, yeah

I'll go crazy if I see you in another dream
It reminds me what you've done to me
As of lately, I'm just stuck, I'm somewhere in between
Keep on praying that you come to me
It's okay you wanna blame me
Yeah, you really wanna blame me
But we left it on a maybe
My insecurities, they break me

Baby, we could've been something special
I'm tryna sell you on a dream, I need another vessel
I made you sad like I made this instrumental
I ain't mean the shit I said like it was accidental
Now I'm clueless if you crave me like I crave you
Do you still listen to the music that I gave you
I know you're fine, but I'm bent on tryna save you
I don't think that I can take it, every night I gotta face you
Liquor for my sorrows, unsure about tomorrow
It's hard to build trust when you empty and you hollow
It's hard to build love when everything you ever had
Is either toxic or it's broken with no way to take it back
I've been tryna hit my ex, but she on to better things
I move on to the next, it becomes the same thing
I guess that I can see you when I have the same dream
Or when we staring at our screens, yeah

I'll go crazy if I see you in another dream
As of lately, I'm just stuck, I'm somewhere in between
It's okay you wanna blame me
But we left it on a maybe