Porch Cat - Ballad For Winter Lyrics

I've been sitting in my bedroom
Sleeping for days, but my bed feels empty
I'm tired of keeping still
If I don't burn this down, who will?
My head's aching all the time
I've been silent but my throat burns
Old man winter's got me down
His hand on my throat and my back on the ground

Haven't been eating much and haven't been eating right
I'm awake in the morning 'cause I can't sleep at night
Addicted to the substance of delusion and distress
Addicted to the way my heart beats in my chest

The sound of hail has got me freezing
The charm of hell is not beyond reason
Drive across the state in snow
Aimless 'til I find somewhere to go
Sometimes I want to scream
Until my throat is numb and I can't breathe
Sometimes I want to run away
Find the desert, find the sun someday

Haven't been eating much and haven't been eating right
I'm awake in the morning 'cause I can't sleep at night
Addicted to the substance of delusion and distress
Addicted to the way my heart beats in my chest

Haven't been eating much and haven't been eating right
I'm awake in the morning 'cause I can't sleep at night
If freedom is the answer, then achieving it's the test
Addicted to the way my heart beats in my chest