SanderSax - MEMORY BOX Lyrics

I'm at a school and I don't even talk to nobody there
My personality is out of that place I'm aware
Students beware of me, like I'm plugged with aline's ware
I wanna be and not to be somebody for all of them there
I'm thinking about it loudly, and maybe I'll be proudly presenting news
That I ain't really giving a buck-et of water when they're starving, cause they didn't give me one
And right now I'm feeling like I really start to have some fun
16 years old homie, what you really want from me?
I'm a building that is building my own self and personality
I cannot change it that is life and that's how it suppose to be
If you do not agree - alright cool, get the fuck off me, you can cross me (uhh)

Cause after that you're done
And maybe you're the one, or some stranger who is around
All the real ones leave you anyway sometime
It is a thought I keep to cry less when it's time (hey)

Day later

I give you gifts
I give you letters
And all of this
Will really matter - for me
Don't worry about me
I'll keep all of the memories beside my bed
About you
About you
Don't need to go through, I'll keep it alive in a box
You're in it, and it is all ok
I can see it, your soul in this shade (hey)

So many tragedies had happened in my life
And it's a night when I'm not really sure if I'll stay alive
I'm sending you a couple voice messages on Telegram
Hope that you gonna read, reply, give me advice a piece of pie
And I rely on what you gonna say to me right now homie
I hope it's something that's supportive, really heartwarming
But the time is passing by and now I slowly starting to worry
Where is your ass gone at night? Iron man? Tony?
You're on important mission when it's 2 am and I'm lonely? (uh)
Hell nah my brother something is wrong
You're usually just playing games and your phone is nearby
And now you're not reading shit I think it's time for goodbye

Hell nah I ain't leaving that early, alright
And as I said in the intro - you're able to cross the line
You are just really offline
I'll go and eat second dine
I hope that when I comeback
I'm gonna see you online, lil bitch

And it's been way too long
It's been a couple hours and I try to stay strong
My patience can't take it long
I think that soon I will lose it
I think about taking a knife in my hands and misusing it (ugh)

I never had no one in my life
Who really could just stay and - keep my alive
It's only always some people who are passing me by
They're opening door with the flowers then giving, goodbye, you know?

Oh yeah, of course there is another try
But I'm done saying try try try try
You know maybe I just really should go?
Just open that window, and fly with the flow?
I'm tired of loving, and I'm tired of being
And I'm tired of having a lot of fucking pain that's screaming

And maybe it's the letter I'll give you
Just before I will go
For all the shit, I forgive you
We both had some drama
We both having trauma
But I just wanna let it all go even if Rano

On Russian that word means early
But now I ain't giving a shit
Just keep me in that memory box homie
I think my life is what I complete
Just keep me in that memory box homie
I think my life is what I complete

I give you gifts
I give you letters
And all of this
Will really matter - for me
Don't worry about me
I'll keep all of the memories beside my bed
About you
About you
Don't need to go through, I'll keep it alive in a box
You're in it, and it is all ok
I can see it, your soul in this shade

You
It's all about you, yeah

Hey yo
You have to know that life matters, and you have to value it
Bye