Xeno Pain - Tryin' So Hard Lyrics

Yeah
Tryin so hard
I done had some Folks been looking down on me
But they gone be the ones that's gone crowd me
I was taught pay attention don't talk as much you listen
Cause people gone show who they are when you on yo struggle
So I been trying so hard I been trying so hard I been trying so hard I been trying so gahdam hard
Trying so hard I been trying so hard I been trying so gahdam hard
But I'm thinking bout the lessons that I need
Like beware of snakes hiding in yo grass
They Steady tryna count yo days and hope that yo fame don't last
I know they ready to see me struggling but you won't ever see me on my ass
Tough luck and I won't give you the satisfaction of seeing me like that
I been a victim of abuse it's not a day that I'on walk without it
I just wanna share my pain so lemme talk about
Started when I was thirteen getting punched around slap across my face but that ain't hurt me
It ain't about who did it
And how I lived with it
Its how it shape my thinking
And That's not what's important but for forreal
Only the real will get it (Hey)
I done had some Folks been looking down on me
But they gone be the ones that's gone crowd me
I was taught pay attention don't talk as much you listen
Cause people gone show who they are when you on yo struggle
So I been trying so hard I been trying so hard I been trying so hard I been trying so gahdam hard
Trying so hard I been trying so hard I been trying so gahdam hard
Going school that was my only escape
Even though they would tease me and treat me like I don't belong in the place
But I held on til life got better and I was treated to some friends that was there when it mattered
I could count on em whenever
I still remember them nights in the woods on them 4 wheelers
Then we went to mariah's crib where we stayed chillin
I was truly happy back then we have to do much
And I would still make it home before the sun comes up
I remember when my daughter died I was drinking every night
I knew it didn't help the pain it just felt alright 
I stopped going church I dam near lost my faith
Kept thinking I love the lord so much how could he treat me this way
Now I got a son coming time to pass on all this love
And be the best dad I can be and that's no matter what
Even tho I still struggle with who I am, am I good enough?
Sometimes I get scared and look in the mirror and say man you too much
I done had some Folks been looking down on me
But they gone be the ones that's gone crowd me
I was taught pay attention don't talk as much you listen
Cause people gone show who they are when you on yo struggle
So I been trying so hard I been trying so hard I been trying so hard I been trying so gahdam hard
Trying so hard I been trying so hard I been trying so gahdam hard

Yeah
Tryin so hard
I done had some Folks been looking down on me
But they gone be the ones that's gone crowd me
I was taught pay attention don't talk as much you listen
Cause people gone show who they are when you on yo struggle
So I been trying so hard I been trying so hard I been trying so hard I been trying so gahdam hard
Trying so hard I been trying so hard I been trying so gahdam hard
But I'm thinking bout the lessons that I need
Like beware of snakes hiding in yo grass
They Steady tryna count yo days and hope that yo fame don't last
I know they ready to see me struggling but you won't ever see me on my ass
Tough luck and I won't give you the satisfaction of seeing me like that
I been a victim of abuse it's not a day that I'on walk without it
I just wanna share my pain so lemme talk about
Started when I was thirteen getting punched around slap across my face but that ain't hurt me
It ain't about who did it
And how I lived with it
Its how it shape my thinking
And That's not what's important but for forreal
Only the real will get it (Hey)
I done had some Folks been looking down on me
But they gone be the ones that's gone crowd me
I was taught pay attention don't talk as much you listen
Cause people gone show who they are when you on yo struggle
So I been trying so hard I been trying so hard I been trying so hard I been trying so gahdam hard
Trying so hard I been trying so hard I been trying so gahdam hard
Going school that was my only escape
Even though they would tease me and treat me like I don't belong in the place
But I held on til life got better and I was treated to some friends that was there when it mattered
I could count on em whenever
I still remember them nights in the woods on them 4 wheelers
Then we went to mariah's crib where we stayed chillin
I was truly happy back then we have to do much
And I would still make it home before the sun comes up
I remember when my daughter died I was drinking every night
I knew it didn't help the pain it just felt alright 
I stopped going church I dam near lost my faith
Kept thinking I love the lord so much how could he treat me this way
Now I got a son coming time to pass on all this love
And be the best dad I can be and that's no matter what
Even tho I still struggle with who I am, am I good enough?
Sometimes I get scared and look in the mirror and say man you too much
I done had some Folks been looking down on me
But they gone be the ones that's gone crowd me
I was taught pay attention don't talk as much you listen
Cause people gone show who they are when you on yo struggle
So I been trying so hard I been trying so hard I been trying so hard I been trying so gahdam hard
Trying so hard I been trying so hard I been trying so gahdam hard