Aezrath - Out Of Place Lyrics

I've been holding it back
I've been trying to react
But it's so late
I've been lost in your face
Everything else is
So out of place
I don't even know
What am I doing
Thought music is my love
But who am I fooling
I am married to the sound
That it is producing
Always holding me back
Cuz I am afraid of losing
Social anxiety
At it's finest
I am on my knees
And it is a highness
Like high on weed
With ADHD focus
Didn't even notice
I don't even got you
So little time
I am losing attention
Being outside
Is my own detention
I need a life
That can calm me down
I am only alive
When I am under ground
What is going on
I don't see myself
If my mind was a mirror
It would not reflect
I guess it's a defect
That I am born with
But if it bothers you
I guess I am sorry
I've been holding it back
I've been trying to react
But it's so late
I've been lost in your face
Everything else is
So out of place
Why is it so simple
When it can be complicated
So many times that I stated
It is self-opinionated
I was never appreciated
That got me motivated
I'll never be humiliated
All fear is evaporated
I am tired of hatred
It gets me frustrated
Need to keep me sedated
From killing what I created
Need to be compensated
Every beat dominated
Everything is demonstrated
Like you anticipated
So pick a side
If you feel like picking
But every second
The clock is ticking
If you come at me
I'm still kicking
Make a whole song
In one sitting
You may beat me
But not my passion
I am deep down
Teaching a lesson
Since I was a teen
I had obligation
To do what I love
With no explanation
I've been holding it back
I've been trying to react
But it's so late
I've been lost in your face
Everything else is
So out of place

I've been holding it back
I've been trying to react
But it's so late
I've been lost in your face
Everything else is
So out of place
I don't even know
What am I doing
Thought music is my love
But who am I fooling
I am married to the sound
That it is producing
Always holding me back
Cuz I am afraid of losing
Social anxiety
At it's finest
I am on my knees
And it is a highness
Like high on weed
With ADHD focus
Didn't even notice
I don't even got you
So little time
I am losing attention
Being outside
Is my own detention
I need a life
That can calm me down
I am only alive
When I am under ground
What is going on
I don't see myself
If my mind was a mirror
It would not reflect
I guess it's a defect
That I am born with
But if it bothers you
I guess I am sorry
I've been holding it back
I've been trying to react
But it's so late
I've been lost in your face
Everything else is
So out of place
Why is it so simple
When it can be complicated
So many times that I stated
It is self-opinionated
I was never appreciated
That got me motivated
I'll never be humiliated
All fear is evaporated
I am tired of hatred
It gets me frustrated
Need to keep me sedated
From killing what I created
Need to be compensated
Every beat dominated
Everything is demonstrated
Like you anticipated
So pick a side
If you feel like picking
But every second
The clock is ticking
If you come at me
I'm still kicking
Make a whole song
In one sitting
You may beat me
But not my passion
I am deep down
Teaching a lesson
Since I was a teen
I had obligation
To do what I love
With no explanation
I've been holding it back
I've been trying to react
But it's so late
I've been lost in your face
Everything else is
So out of place