Heinous - Fade Away Lyrics

Broke man, lost soul
Stuck on replay
I'd be lying
If I said it's a party everyday
Used to party everyday
Trying to party everyday
Lately thinking of dying everyday
Shit really smacked
That's the one to get you
Tell myself man I know they won't miss you
Think there's something else
Living in my brain
Think I'm going crazy
Think I'm going insane
Tearing out my soul
Like I'm tearing out my IV
Want to die til I see the light flashing
Only gotten worse since I started aging
All the pain I've seen man it's amazing
Rip away my hope
They keep ripping it away
You can see them know that hells
Going to find another day
Wish there was a way to change it
Been searching
But you know I ain't made it
And you know I'm not sorry
Know I'm really faded
Know I'm not shit
But you know I'm going to make it
Know I'm faded
Know I'm past saving
Slumped out on the couch
Because I know how to take them
They hold me down today
More dark days things will change
That cure I will obtain
Tried alot of things
Never found a better way
Tell me if you know a better way
I don't think I'm going to make it
I've been trying everyday
I know I'm really just closer
To the day I watch it fade away
Black lights, fat lines
Nothing on my mind
I'ma hit that Jeffery one more time
Searching for a big high
Know I'm going to find it
Living on the edge is the place I feel best
Know I'm going to get right
I'm an old soul
Young kid doing what I do best
Wasting time and getting real high
Want to die so I take a real big line
Cause I know I won't die
Know it ain't time
Know it's coming sometime not tonight
Lot of weight on my shoulders
Know it's hard to fight
Say that life is beautiful?
Your only half right
They hold me down today
More dark days things will change
That cure I will obtain
Tried alot of things
Never found a better way
Tell me if you know a better way
I don't really think I'm going to make it
I've been trying everyday
Know I'm really just closer
To the day I watch it fade away

Broke man, lost soul
Stuck on replay
I'd be lying
If I said it's a party everyday
Used to party everyday
Trying to party everyday
Lately thinking of dying everyday
Shit really smacked
That's the one to get you
Tell myself man I know they won't miss you
Think there's something else
Living in my brain
Think I'm going crazy
Think I'm going insane
Tearing out my soul
Like I'm tearing out my IV
Want to die til I see the light flashing
Only gotten worse since I started aging
All the pain I've seen man it's amazing
Rip away my hope
They keep ripping it away
You can see them know that hells
Going to find another day
Wish there was a way to change it
Been searching
But you know I ain't made it
And you know I'm not sorry
Know I'm really faded
Know I'm not shit
But you know I'm going to make it
Know I'm faded
Know I'm past saving
Slumped out on the couch
Because I know how to take them
They hold me down today
More dark days things will change
That cure I will obtain
Tried alot of things
Never found a better way
Tell me if you know a better way
I don't think I'm going to make it
I've been trying everyday
I know I'm really just closer
To the day I watch it fade away
Black lights, fat lines
Nothing on my mind
I'ma hit that Jeffery one more time
Searching for a big high
Know I'm going to find it
Living on the edge is the place I feel best
Know I'm going to get right
I'm an old soul
Young kid doing what I do best
Wasting time and getting real high
Want to die so I take a real big line
Cause I know I won't die
Know it ain't time
Know it's coming sometime not tonight
Lot of weight on my shoulders
Know it's hard to fight
Say that life is beautiful?
Your only half right
They hold me down today
More dark days things will change
That cure I will obtain
Tried alot of things
Never found a better way
Tell me if you know a better way
I don't really think I'm going to make it
I've been trying everyday
Know I'm really just closer
To the day I watch it fade away