Illy1 - Special Lyrics

Mummy always told me, son you're special
But lately when I think about it
The mind wants to wrestle with that thought
Asking myself do I really feel that in my core
Fighting with these thoughts like a tug of war
Pain in my heart but what for
Right now i'm not even sure anymore
Back and forth with the same things
It's like its never been enough
Even when i tried to give my best
It's getting harder to believe in my dreams
I find it harder not to doubt in myself less and less
Take this cup away from me
Lord i'm feeling stressed
Take this cup away from me
Lord I need your help
I fight these thoughts in my head
Thoughts in my bed
Thoughts when I'm chilling
Look these thoughts don't rest
And I wanna say more but I'd rather say less
Seen better days
I know i'm far from my best
I trust in God
He got my back
I need to stay strong
Holding onto every promise
Need them daylong
Daylong
Pray you keep me and my day ones
Day ones
We go way back so I'll pray on
You see everything I dont so can you lead me
I'm still struggling with this can you see me
See me
In your arms keep me
See me
In your arms keep me
I trust in God
He got my back
I need to stay strong
Holding onto every promise
Need them daylong
Daylong
Pray you keep me and my day ones
Day ones
We go way back so I'll pray on
You see everything I dont so can you lead me
I'm still struggling with this can you see me
Feel like I'm stuck
I just rap to get my words out
Life got me tired, tryna work out
How much more
I can take
Till I burn out
Tryna stay positive
But i'm still tryna learn how
Hard to keep faith when can't see the birds eye
Right now, i'm on the verge
I, hate the table that i'm at
Just turn mine
No straight lines here
Just blurred lines
Hate the table that i'm at
Just turn mine
No straight lines here just
No straight lines here
Just blurred lines
I trust in God He got my back I need to stay strong
Holding onto every promise need them daylong
Daylong
Pray you keep me and my day ones
We go way back so I'll pray on
You see everything I dont so can you lead me
I'm still struggling with this can you see me
See me
In your arms keep me
See me
In your arms keep me
I'm still praying come through you
I'm still praying i trust you
I'm still praying come through you
I'm still praying i trust you
I trust you
I need to stay strong
Mummy always told me, son you're special
But lately when I think about it
The mind wants to wrestle
With that thought
Asking myself do I really feel that in my core
Fighting with these thoughts like a tug of war
Sometimes i find it hard to keep my eyes in focus
It's so easy
To find yourself here when your heart it hopeless
But life taught me
That's when I really need you closest

Mummy always told me, son you're special
But lately when I think about it
The mind wants to wrestle with that thought
Asking myself do I really feel that in my core
Fighting with these thoughts like a tug of war
Pain in my heart but what for
Right now i'm not even sure anymore
Back and forth with the same things
It's like its never been enough
Even when i tried to give my best
It's getting harder to believe in my dreams
I find it harder not to doubt in myself less and less
Take this cup away from me
Lord i'm feeling stressed
Take this cup away from me
Lord I need your help
I fight these thoughts in my head
Thoughts in my bed
Thoughts when I'm chilling
Look these thoughts don't rest
And I wanna say more but I'd rather say less
Seen better days
I know i'm far from my best
I trust in God
He got my back
I need to stay strong
Holding onto every promise
Need them daylong
Daylong
Pray you keep me and my day ones
Day ones
We go way back so I'll pray on
You see everything I dont so can you lead me
I'm still struggling with this can you see me
See me
In your arms keep me
See me
In your arms keep me
I trust in God
He got my back
I need to stay strong
Holding onto every promise
Need them daylong
Daylong
Pray you keep me and my day ones
Day ones
We go way back so I'll pray on
You see everything I dont so can you lead me
I'm still struggling with this can you see me
Feel like I'm stuck
I just rap to get my words out
Life got me tired, tryna work out
How much more
I can take
Till I burn out
Tryna stay positive
But i'm still tryna learn how
Hard to keep faith when can't see the birds eye
Right now, i'm on the verge
I, hate the table that i'm at
Just turn mine
No straight lines here
Just blurred lines
Hate the table that i'm at
Just turn mine
No straight lines here just
No straight lines here
Just blurred lines
I trust in God He got my back I need to stay strong
Holding onto every promise need them daylong
Daylong
Pray you keep me and my day ones
We go way back so I'll pray on
You see everything I dont so can you lead me
I'm still struggling with this can you see me
See me
In your arms keep me
See me
In your arms keep me
I'm still praying come through you
I'm still praying i trust you
I'm still praying come through you
I'm still praying i trust you
I trust you
I need to stay strong
Mummy always told me, son you're special
But lately when I think about it
The mind wants to wrestle
With that thought
Asking myself do I really feel that in my core
Fighting with these thoughts like a tug of war
Sometimes i find it hard to keep my eyes in focus
It's so easy
To find yourself here when your heart it hopeless
But life taught me
That's when I really need you closest