John Anthony - Dying 2 Live Lyrics

No, I wonder if they'll laugh when I'm dead?
Why am I fighting to live if I'm just living to fight?
Why am I trying to see when there ain't nothing in sight?, (Yeah)
Why am I trying to give when no one gives me a try?, (Just give me a try, man)
Why am I dying to live if I'm just living to die?

You ever have a lot, wishing you ain't had what you got
Because the shit you have can make some people hate you, I'm shocked
You wanna start a war, but then the swords get turned into shots
I'm not the soldier you want, but I'm the one that you got
I fear a lot, but being robbed or shot can tear you apart
The thought of your friends betraying can leave you in a rot
But not gonna let all that shit just go and lead me to stop
I'll then erase all this nonsense and put my faith into God
It's like I'm walking with my tail between my legs
Had a lot to go and give, but I just threw that all away
All these suicidal thoughts, but I don't wanna die today
Not begging for no one's help, just wanna express the way that I'm feeling
I got a lot up on my shoulder that just carries the weight
So many people say I'm crazy, I believe what they say
I feel like I've gone insane, I can't control all these ways
Pistol straight to my brain, before I am gone then I'll say

No, I wonder if they'll laugh when I'm dead? (Tell 'em, man)
Why am I fighting to live if I'm just living to fight?
Why am I trying to see when there ain't nothing in sight?
Why am I trying to give when no one gives me a try?
Why am I dying to live if I'm just living to die?

Huh, it's funny
I used to be the type that would talk about all the money
Now I'm barely getting paid on a weekend if I be lucky
I'm putting my music over the people that's ever loved me
It's kind'a disgusting how I am selfish and never loving, but tell me
What would you do if your passion gets to your head
And you barely have slept and people be pushing you off the ledge
And I'm always in bed thinking of stupid shit that I've said
Cause I'm always fighting back with the faggots that wanted me dead
But instead of falling off of that ledge and acting a mess
I'ma take a step back and just re-track what I did
Maybe take a few meds with a Jack Daniel's instead
Watch the Walking Dead with a friend all over again
Anything to get my mind off all the shit that I did
And every upsetting time that I would have as a kid
That carried into my life, and now it's here as it is
Freedomly expressing my shit through the line's that I hit

No, I wonder if they'll laugh when I'm dead? (Tell 'em, man)
Why am I fighting to live if I'm just living to fight?
Why am I trying to see when there ain't nothing in sight?
Why am I trying to give when no one gives me a try?
Why am I dying to live if I'm just living to die?