Mikah - Note To Self Lyrics

I'm trying not to lose the line of sight I nearly thought that I had
But everyday is slipping out of view no matter how I turn my head
All these things are spinning and I'm starting to get dizzy
Not to mention got the candle burning at both ends
Mama didn't raise a juggler, oh no
Just a freak in a tent

It's feeling like I'm barely holding on to the visions that I saw
They leave me like an ocean getting sucked out of my mind through a straw
I'm reaching out to grab 'em but I just can't seem to fathom
The permanence of all the damage that I've done
Mama didn't raise a star boy, oh no
Just a fool of a sun

The other day I realized that I don't think sleep ever came easily
It's my imagination that just keeps on disquieting my body
But maybe there's a way to break through these reservations
With some medical assistance or a cup of tea
Mama didn't raise a drinker, oh no
But maybe I ought to be

Cause we're gluttons for punishment
Addicts and freaks who want nothing more
Than to find the next thing to withdraw from,
To love and to lose

But you've got a feeling tonight
That you might just give up your fight
But I ask you to know
That you're not the only one here
My dear
Oh, My dear

Finally, it's clear the point of reference I imagined in my head
At 27 years you'd think I'd almost have it yeah that's what they said
But just the other morning I could see that it was crazy
And that all this time I'd thought about this game all wrong
Mama surely raised a dancer, oh yeah
So I'm moving on

Mama surely raised a dancer, oh yeah
So I'm moving on