Neonblack - Belief Lyrics

No life in my eyes, I stay bitter
Refuse to see
Any negativity
Aimed at me
I come alive in the winter
I'm cold
I think I lost control
Where's the G-O-D
To come help me?
I've been working my ass off
And sleeping on couches for two years
I've been alone in the struggle
Loved ones struggling too
Either in debt or they're dead
We're too caught up to care
But the enemies
Enter these
Times with the thought of getting ahead
They stab the homeless in streets or choke a nigga on air
And I'm supposed to believe that this all pre-ordained?
I see more pain
Than blessings
Receive disdain
In the package lessons
I was dreaming of my adolescence
When I prayed to the lord
Back then I was sure but not no more
Did the slaves
Really have a choice but to pray
To the faith
That white man forced?
Of course
They could've died
With their pride
But instead, we have my generation fighting for clarity
With minimal force
But if my grandpa is hearing me
Then I'd show some remorse

I don't know if I believe in a higher power
Higher power, higher power
I don't think that I believe in a higher power
Higher power, I don't believe
I don't know if I believe in a higher power
Higher power, this shit is wild
I don't think that I believe in a higher power
Guess I gotta die to find out

The other day some poor motherfucker caught fire in the middle of the freeway
And all I thought was 'man, I'm gonna be late'
The pain don't even relay
The right way
To my brain
No more
I saw my neighbor slit his wrists when I was seven years old
Or maybe that was before
Sometimes I don't even know
I don't believe in higher powers, I believe in below
Like the devils we invent
All of the monsters
We used them as vehicles to vent
But now they've conquered us
This ain't no argument from evil though
No Epicurus
I'm just wishing that I had the means to know
The way to cure us
You think the pain you bring stems from divine
I think our suffering is all your crime
So you can miss me with that god has a plan shit
And stop that wishing for fast cars and a mansion
The universe doesn't care about you
And the world would keep on spinning without you
Not because it's cold or dispassionate, that's just the way it is

I don't know if I believe in a higher power
Higher power, higher power
I don't think that I believe in a higher power
Higher power, I don't believe
I don't know if I believe in a higher power
Higher power, this shit is wild
I don't think that I believe in a higher power
Guess I gotta die to find out

I don't believe in destiny
Because belief is for the weak
I don't believe in destiny
Because belief is for the weak
I don't believe in destiny
Because belief is for the weak