Phatahl - Wild Lyrics

I try so damn hard to forget you but I can't never get rid of your face
I could be on top of the world so wild but still your trace I could never replace
I don't want to keep myself down, so I keep grinding hard in my place
See myself I'm so proud, let my music honor my face, yeah
Keep it controlled
I won't never let it take a hold of me again
Promises I let them go
Platinum painted roses or the diamonds let me know
Fucked around and let the ball fall
I had to start from the bottom and work my way up again
I ran around thinking bet on my luck again
I know the challenge it's me that I'm up against
Thoughts that I'm relishing
In the end there ain't shit you could sell to me
I been down so bad I was eating celery
Caught my loop I'm flipping in your devilry
Took the red I'm seeing all my felonies
Plain as day my thoughts all dripping jealousy
Black and white in mono like a melody
Had to shed my skin and burn it hell to peace
So I pray to god that I'll have hell to bring
When I see memories playing out hellishly
See them coming reserve all my shells to fling
Wake up burn pillowcases to velvetly
I don't want to go calmly up into that night
I'ma draw up my cards hammer steel play them right
Only love is my music I don't want a wife
All these bitches been playing and playing and trife
I try so damn hard to forget you but I can't never get rid of your face
I could be on top of the world so wild but still your trace I could never replace
I don't want to keep myself down, so I keep grinding hard in my place
See myself I'm so proud, let my music honor my face
When I woke up it's like my whole mental changed
Like a dream ain't a thing but my mental stains
I lost all of my friends and I felt the pain
Only promised myself that I'll melt the chains
Found a way on my own climbed up out of it
Had no help from the meds they just clouded it
Got addicted and nobody doubted it
Carried weight on my own I ain't touted shit
It's a shame was my momma that gave me the bottle of pills
A bottle of pills to a bottle of thrills
My twenty first I lost a week of my time
Them videos playing my demons at will
I had to recollect and keep it on pushing
My daddy was drunk he was stuck on the cushion
My therapist really turned into my momma
Them angles be killing me I know it's bullshit
I ain't tryna bitch it ain't nun but a thing
You can't see the pic 'til you put it in frame
I laugh in my head when they think I'm a lame
Don't see what I see they just seeing some change
The light at the end promise it ain't a doubt
Put it to heart I been screaming it out
I put down my head I ain't seeing the same
So when it start coming I know where it came
I try so damn hard to forget you but I can't never get rid of your face
I could be on top of the world so wild but still your trace I could never replace
I don't wanna keep myself down, so I keep grinding hard in my place
See myself I'm so proud, let my music honor my face

I try so damn hard to forget you but I can't never get rid of your face
I could be on top of the world so wild but still your trace I could never replace
I don't want to keep myself down, so I keep grinding hard in my place
See myself I'm so proud, let my music honor my face, yeah
Keep it controlled
I won't never let it take a hold of me again
Promises I let them go
Platinum painted roses or the diamonds let me know
Fucked around and let the ball fall
I had to start from the bottom and work my way up again
I ran around thinking bet on my luck again
I know the challenge it's me that I'm up against
Thoughts that I'm relishing
In the end there ain't shit you could sell to me
I been down so bad I was eating celery
Caught my loop I'm flipping in your devilry
Took the red I'm seeing all my felonies
Plain as day my thoughts all dripping jealousy
Black and white in mono like a melody
Had to shed my skin and burn it hell to peace
So I pray to god that I'll have hell to bring
When I see memories playing out hellishly
See them coming reserve all my shells to fling
Wake up burn pillowcases to velvetly
I don't want to go calmly up into that night
I'ma draw up my cards hammer steel play them right
Only love is my music I don't want a wife
All these bitches been playing and playing and trife
I try so damn hard to forget you but I can't never get rid of your face
I could be on top of the world so wild but still your trace I could never replace
I don't want to keep myself down, so I keep grinding hard in my place
See myself I'm so proud, let my music honor my face
When I woke up it's like my whole mental changed
Like a dream ain't a thing but my mental stains
I lost all of my friends and I felt the pain
Only promised myself that I'll melt the chains
Found a way on my own climbed up out of it
Had no help from the meds they just clouded it
Got addicted and nobody doubted it
Carried weight on my own I ain't touted shit
It's a shame was my momma that gave me the bottle of pills
A bottle of pills to a bottle of thrills
My twenty first I lost a week of my time
Them videos playing my demons at will
I had to recollect and keep it on pushing
My daddy was drunk he was stuck on the cushion
My therapist really turned into my momma
Them angles be killing me I know it's bullshit
I ain't tryna bitch it ain't nun but a thing
You can't see the pic 'til you put it in frame
I laugh in my head when they think I'm a lame
Don't see what I see they just seeing some change
The light at the end promise it ain't a doubt
Put it to heart I been screaming it out
I put down my head I ain't seeing the same
So when it start coming I know where it came
I try so damn hard to forget you but I can't never get rid of your face
I could be on top of the world so wild but still your trace I could never replace
I don't wanna keep myself down, so I keep grinding hard in my place
See myself I'm so proud, let my music honor my face