Plea of Insanity - Onanism Lyrics

A grandiose interpretation of perception
Through a voice that perpetuates deception
Pay no attention to what's behind the curtain
An abstract construct where nothing is certain
A watchmaker creating in seclusion
An avatar born of arrogant delusion
Fabrications I indite
Anything but my real life

Here is a list of all the things that make me fucking sick
Inflate my importance, just to make you feel like shit
Flaunting triumph in a passive aggressive war
We don't all fight but we're all keeping score

Hell is other people
I no longer speak their language
Holding in my vomit
The stench of life makes me fucking nauseous

All deception, smoke and mirrors, they won't see me
Altering reality
All deception, smoke and mirrors, they won't see me
Hiding in the smoke screen
All deception, smoke and mirrors, they won't see me
Altering reality
All deception, smoke and mirrors, they won't see me

Voyeurism through one way mirrors
An opaque vision of a crafted image
Solitary misanthropic self stimulation
Hell is other people
I no longer speak their language
Holding in my vomit
The stench of life makes me fucking nauseous

A grandiose interpretation of perception
Through a voice that perpetuates deception
Pay no attention to what's behind the curtain
An abstract construct where nothing is certain
An experiment in human isolation
Trading intercourse for mental masturbation
A self-serving narcissistic proclamation
Meant to mask a sense of quiet desperation

Stand in shock and awe at the perfection I've created
An orgasmic sense of pride, like the first time god masturbated

Looking down
Throwing up
Playing god and Jerking off
Looking down
Throwing up
Playing god and Jerking off
Looking down
Throwing up
Playing god and Jerking off
Looking down
Throwing up
Playing god and Jerking off
Jerking off
Jerking off
Jerking off

What's behind the door? Don't let it be my real life
What's in store? Don't make me live my real life
Please don't make me live my real life
You're not fooling anyone
It's all transparent