Porch Cat - The Waking Song Lyrics

I've been missing the things I don't remember
I've been reliving the things that I do
When I don't eat for hours, I don't get hungry
The nausea keeps me from wanting food

I'm afraid of sleeping, cause I'm afraid of waking
I'm afraid of eating, cause I'm afraid of puking

When I go to bed, I feel empty
When I wake up, I feel the same
When I get tired, I don't feel like sleeping
Cause the nausea keeps me from having dreams
I'm afraid of doing things that make me laugh
I'm afraid of doing things that distract me
Cause I'm afraid that when I do them I'll still feel
And that nothing will seem very funny

I'm afraid of sleeping, cause I'm afraid of waking
I'm afraid of eating, cause I'm afraid of puking
I'm afraid of living, cause I'm afraid of dying
I'm afraid of sleeping, cause I'm afraid of waking