Quixx III - Numb to the Brain Lyrics

I'm not suicidal
But sometimes I really don't feel okay
I'm lost in the cycle
Forgive me Lord, drugs got me feeling numb to the brain
Laced myself, mixed the Mary with the Jane
White girl at the party doing cocaine
Saline in my system, I can't feel a thing
It's not like you cared anyways

I'm too fucked up
I've been taking all these drugs
'Cause I don't really give a fuck
I got no love
I wanted your love
Now your time's up
It's fuck feelings now
I'm not gonna sober up
I'm sorry Mom & Dad, I'm still sinning
If life was a game then I'm not winning
Don't get too close
I'll leave you finished
She think she broke my heart
Oh no she didn't

I'm not suicidal
But sometimes I really don't feel okay
I'm lost in the cycle
Forgive me Lord, drugs got me feeling numb to the brain
Laced myself, mixed the Mary with the Jane
White girl at the party doing cocaine
Saline in my system, I can't feel a thing
It's not like you cared anyways

I took too much I don't even know why
I guess the truth is I just really want to buy time
But then again you can't even really buy any time
The real question is why even ask me why?
All girls I've ever gone for
Have told me lies
Tell me the truth
It won't hurt me
I'm already fucked up
Don't you realize?

I'm not suicidal
But sometimes I really don't feel okay
I'm lost in the cycle
Forgive me Lord, drugs got me feeling numb to the brain
Laced myself, mixed the Mary with the Jane
White girl at the party doing cocaine
Saline in my system, I can't feel a thing
It's not like you cared anyways